shit

newater

2 cliche perception : shit and even more shit

but have you guys ever thought that in future, our lives would even revolve more around shit and whatever you can find in the bloody sewage

trust me

it will

and dont be surprised if dettol happened to be made of human waste (i know its a little contradicting..dettol supposed to be an anti-bacterial reagent and its made of bacteria-based compound)

because basically what my company is doing is to convert waste cooking oil and human waste into soap and biofuel

considering the fact that the world is ageing at a freaking fast rate and global warming growth is accelerating

i think its a good alternative to our daily products

but then again..the RnD stage is the most mentally,psychologically excruciating for me and my other SP mates

not only we have to dig shit

we smell shit

we bathe shit..well..literally (ni pon psl terjatuh...lincin babe..)

i think the worst part was ummm..we placed all the processed waste(oil based) into the trash bags (gotta remember..oil attacks plastics)

then..as we were to carry the filled trash bags..naaudzubilaminzalik

the bag broke..

can you imagine those waste just slide down your leg like as though you've been puked at

and that "person" cant even apologise

it kinda reminds of the exorcist

chey chey

talking bout shit..

o0oyes

i think this sunday

gona be shittay

i think i most prob have to spar

damn it

its time to impress that sheik alauwudin (ni betol2 black ape ah)

btw he's my silat idol

=]

wish me luck

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and yes

im working hard

jog 2 clicks a day

what to do

ns calling oledy

damn it

btw...im swooned

g unit outing

fahmy = nephew = love

meen busy playing with my need for speed

amir told me i look my best in this photo

my cake.i've to share it with amir

ni cake..betol..amir tak kasi share

he's high

hungry

si deyni..lokek cake..tak kasi share

music junction

muke steam

childhood

childhood fantasies,dreams and tales

1) i alwaes dream of marrying a nurse one day. but that fantasy was cancelled when my hot nurse neighbour got her second child.aiyoyoyo..ni bukan badan anak mak..ni badan mak anak adela

2) i used to matchmake my ninja turtle with my sis' barbie. but alwaes got rejected (too ugly ah)

3) i like to play masak-masak with my sister. but i alwaes ending up cooking the barbie's head..no ingredient nye pasal

4) i was freaking notorious back in primary school. trust me. my actions were for good reasons (well most of it) there's this incident where my teacher scolded my class for no apparent reason. since i am big fan of justice league and i strongly believe in serving justice (nak step hero gitu)..so i stared at him and spat at his face. result = detention and one hell of a canning

5) o0o how i hate my pri 1 form teacher. i still remember when i really need to go to the toilet. she still refused to allow me to go toilet. i kept insisting but she kept saying no..so ok..i just crapped inside my pants..teacher. now u clean this up for me (padan muke..tula kepale batu)

6) when i was in kindergarten, i thought smoking was cool. it aint cool when i took a quick puff from my dad's unattended cigarette. my dad caught me red-handed..abes..rotan ah..

7) when i was in p1, i told myself i would get married at the age of 18. look at me now. i'm almost 20 and still very much single..haha

8) i was exposed to sting, scorpion, deep purple, eagles, iron maiden when i was still very much a baby.. bapak gua rocker babe..haha

9) in primary school, i had a crush on this girl..if im not wrong, her name is fazlin. haha. how do i express my love to her ? haha..i wacked her with a long ruler..haha..you know they say ah..love can be aggresive and tough =]

10) i alwaes managed to run away from injection (success rate : 90%). doctor used child psychology thingy on me but unfortunately,it dont work for me. so i quickly hide under nurse's uniform..haha..hey..i was only 3 ok

11) doctors hate me so much. they told my parents i gonna die young because im so bloody hyper active. nabei

12) i stole my very 1st and last candy at this mama shop. so i was happily eating my candy inside my room and my mum asked where did i got the candy from..i told her..somemore threw up the candy from the 1st floor to my room's window.(9th floor) you tell me which mother would believe such bull. haha..i had to stand outside my house for 5 hours. as i thought it was over, my dad came back..mati mati..tentu mati..haha...kene rembat ah..

13) my mum alwaes told me i would make it big in future. success always starts with belief and fear of God

14) u used to bribe my sister alot whenever i did something wrong and i dont wish her to complain to my mum. the highest amount i had to pay was $5..remember..she was only 3..haha.

15) i still remember what i got for my sis on her 4th bday. a badge. trust me.it was hard-earnt effort. i had to pick up coins from the floor and slowly collect them

16) i used to have an imaginary friend and trust me. it aint pretty. it controlled my life. why am i telling you people this . its as good as telling you guys i met E.T

17) haha..cheers to my childhood

believe

believe


i dont to be just successful..i want to be a sucess

i dont want to do just good things. i want to do great things

i dont want to be just a team player. i want to be a hero

i want to be a leader of a pack. a pack of leaders

i believe in the greater heights you achieve, greater fall you will receive

i truly believe pain is inevitable but misery and suffering is optional. it's up to individual

i dont believe in living life to the fullest because you don't know when you gonna go.so make the best out of life

hardwork (50%) + pain (30%) + failure after failure (20%) = sweet sucess

i believe in justice and i strongly believe one should be punished for his misdeeds. and for that, i've sinned

i believe in the obligation of making one smile because a day without a smile is a day wasted

i believe i'm not ugly. i'm just beautifully deformed

work

i think im beginning to worry for own safety at work

i mean...really

besides all those chemicals and acid tanks

i think this is way much serious than that

and trust me..it aint gonna be pretty

and let repeat that again..IT AINT GONNA BE PRETTY

my coursemates have been complaining to me about how guys disturbed them with the wolf whistles and with their intolerable obnoxious behaviour

im going through the same thing

BUT

sadly, i attract the wrong group of people

DAMN IT !

scenarios

1) i wanna aboard the lorry (the only source of transportation to tuas and ive to sit with other colleagues of mine). so this faggot came to me..come kawaii boy..lai..let me help you (his hands already at my butt)..ni budak dasa nak kene rembat

2) the following day, i was busy dealing with the tank and housekeeping..then he came up to me..eh hidayat..i had a dream bout you..you were doing blow job for me..o0o..i like it..i just love fantasizing bout you

nang bo ti nang

dui bo di dui

hidup pun susa

mati pun susa

i dont dare to mess with him cause i dont want my results to be affected

ape nak buat

cobaan

tolong
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Things/People that have made me the person i am today

1) God

2) Family

3) Friends (g unit : yang utama dan diutamakan)

4) Money (you know what they say..no money..no honey)

5) Studies ( i still very much take it seriously )

6) Dreams

7) Principles ( the key principle : i dont want to do just good things but great things too )

=]

Insight to my life

insight to my life

1) i'm infamous hidayat

2) 19

3) i do not laugh, i cry

4) i find amusement in ridiculing myself

5) i enjoy making good looking people feel inferior

6) i am blatantly honest (due to the fact that i've been brought up by 2 geminies and surrounded by aries) which frequently make others feel insulted and assaulted

7) writing is one of my many affinities which i can never excel in it

8) i am a victim of the society

9) i have transitioned into an individual who neither be agreeable or acceptable

10) i wear my heart on my sleeve. so i dont feel pain

11) people who do not like me falls into two catogeries : the dumb and the jealous

easy as that

=]

cloud 9

i'm totally in cloud 9 mood

nopes..it aint sarah (she only gives me orgasm when i ride her.k. this sounds a little wrong tho)

nopes.it aint jessica hsuan (she's a total dreamboat despite being 20 yrs older than me)

nopes.it aint eva mendes ( habba habba..ni amir lagi suke..aku paoto ezah oi)

1st time in my poly life..i actually smile widely

never felt tt satisfied before

hardwork did paid off

and im truly grateful for tt

and yes..now this saying do make sense

if you know what you're studyin and study it hard..there's no reason for u to fail

thank su..peace

and thank you mak bedah for having faith in me(org da thank oi..blanje starbucks bile oi..haha)..you're the best la (for now aje..nyehehehehehe)

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That pretty face
Oooyes…that pretty face

Its so pretty
I could even burn it
To make you realize what it feels like to be ugly
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Those lips
Ooyes…those beautiful lips
If only I could just tear them off
Just to make you realize how painful it was when lies came out
From your mouth
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In this very tragedy
We learn to live
Well.

Live to learn
But you just prefer living in your own lesson
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Hearts bleeding
A norm
Fear creeping
O how I hate you so bad
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Suffer

I had to
Suffering

You will be
(Try rhyming that with your name, bitch)
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Boy next door
Green
Butterflies
Beetle
Rose of tomorrow
Fractions
Mosaic jazz
Starbucks
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Lies
Secrets
Elusive
Betrayal
Seeking for forgiveness
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Aint no sunshine when youre gone ?
Haha
two words
Dream on
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