2 songs currently stuck in my head : mocking bird and when i'm gone.both from eminem
movie stuck in my head : gladiator
man.last night, the show "gladiator" was screened at tv3.christmas special.awesome movie.great storyline.great plot.the acting was so real.i like the part where the hmm..cant rmb the name.aiya.the villain.he said to maximus " i could remember how your son been nailed to......(something something.cant rmb ah) and he squeled like a little girl.and your wife.she cried in pain brutally tortured and raped over and over again.just like a whore".my goodness.when i watch that part, tears dropped.i really felt maximus' agony ah.imagine putting yourself in his position.your loved ones been slayed down slowly and mercilessly.and the worst part is they are innocent.hais.
okies.got nothing much to talk about.having a bad sore throat.man.i truly cant wait for tml.yan gonna reformat my com.its bout time.amir coming to my place to play fm.wooohoo.be prepared ah mir.kk.see ya suckas.hehe
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
chalet
azlindah.gotta admit.the chalet was quite a sucess eventhough there were hardly any food.o0owell.its okies.two thumbs up
first day of chalet: i simply hate it when im going somewhere, then suddenly my stomach probs start to act ah.aiyoo.i hate it.i hate it even more with the presence of zee...haha..he will purposely make me laugh just to aggravate the matter.nanti kau zee.haha.i'll have my revenge one day.thk God the chalet was nearby.but once i got into the toilet,damn false alarm.cannot come out.hais.chilakas.
0oya.me zee n wanee reach at hmmm..7 i think.g unit played a game of pictionary.i think tt was the first time i played such a game.okies.so the word i have to act out is beach.instead of acting out as a beach, i pretend to a bitch(female dog).haha.that was the most stupid thing i've ever done.if its for the sake of having fun..o0o welll...
basically, the whole night i spent with my sis, bel.we practically just chit chat and took pics of each other.the whole night.we only manage to catch 30 min of slp.and have to wake up at 8.cause me n zee need to go home to get ready for the mmsp(mr n ms sp).dang.
so the next day : reach home bout 12 frm the paris ris.initially, wanted to perform my friday prayers.but really, i was dead beat.my whole body rejected all the signals that were sent from my brain. so, i couldn't stand any longer.i doze off.woke up at 3.took a quick shower and changed to my player's wear. i've to meet zee,mir,fahmy and the ladies at sp fc 5 at 4.30pm for the mmsp
630 pm and we still standing outside the bloody convention centre.damn it.the weather was killing us and damn it la.i was wearing black formal top.the whole gala event supposed to start at 630 but we are only able to enter at 705 ??hais..disappointing man.i guess the whole event was quite a sucess except for the the entrance part and the q-ing up for the refreshments.to be frank,my favourite part is the dance performance put up by the contestants themselves.that was the best ah.esp the song hung up.fuuu.it was not the girls who caught my attention.haha.got this bulky,hunky contestant ah.he exaggerated the dance moves and he dance to fast la.haha.he really look like one congo dancing to dangdut song ah.aduu..tak blei tahan loorrr....lucky him.he got suave looks and chiselled bod.if not, he'll be the joke of the night.
11pm and still the results have not been revealed.dang.they were giving out trophies,plates and certificates to the organisers,yada yada yada.freaking draggy la.bloody anal.people also want to go home la.15 min.they announced the results.its bout time.damn it !! hairul did not win the mr sp title.wad the hell.i guess me and the others were shocked.he did so well.he mesmerized the crowd with his slique moves and his charm.he leave girls drooling when he was in his formal wear.he outsmart the other beautiful contestants apparently with child-like iq with his brilliant answer.and what did he get ?....3rd prize.hais.disappointed but i guess that's life.you may do well in the race.but there will be people who will try to bring you down.
1130 pm.me and zee were making our move to paris ris.we reached the chalet site at 12 30am(approximate timing).there were only a few people attended the 2nd day.my stomach was rumbling.i really cannot tahan.luckily,got some barbequed chicken wings.abes ah.sampedek ah.
from 1 to 3++..me n the other g unit members were just laughing throughout the whole 3 hrs.zee was cracking us up with his idiotic antics.haha.really.chang was drunk.wa..n some more he sat beside me.i just hate the smell of vodka.zee and chang left 4 am.hais.wasted.i could tahan no more.i went to bed with my sis.aiyo.pity her ah.i dominated the whole bed.sorry !!
woke up at 9.took a 30 min shower.fuuuu..."rejuvenating" sei.the water freaking cold la eventhough the heater was on.had my breakfast.i cooked crabsticks for meen n bel too.btw i boiled them in the kettle.too lazy to bbq.so just boil them ah.haha.n i had 5 oranges.i really really need my vitamin c cause ive not been having it for the past 3 days.so after breakfast, we quickly packed up and leave the site. we had a proper breakfast at mc dee.from 1030 to 1. well, i had 2 apple pies. i intended to have a meal but think again, all those salt, fats n msg inside my body.aiyo.so nvmla.i skipped.after our meal, we headed to barney's musical theater.yea..haha.we took loads of pics.kk.bout the pics, dont worry guys.i'll send them to you once yan repair my com this tues.latest, friday ah.
i think the best part was inside the mrt.me n bel were taking pics then suddenly,prattttttt...haha...belinda farted.haha.my goodness.it was bloody loud.haha.guess,it runs in the family ah,sis.haha.funny la.an mrt ride to be remembered.yups.well, guess that's all.to finish it all.we were all tired but happy..haha.this is so like my pri-1 compo la esp the ending..haha..kk.the end
[to tell or not to tell.it's just a matter of time]
first day of chalet: i simply hate it when im going somewhere, then suddenly my stomach probs start to act ah.aiyoo.i hate it.i hate it even more with the presence of zee...haha..he will purposely make me laugh just to aggravate the matter.nanti kau zee.haha.i'll have my revenge one day.thk God the chalet was nearby.but once i got into the toilet,damn false alarm.cannot come out.hais.chilakas.
0oya.me zee n wanee reach at hmmm..7 i think.g unit played a game of pictionary.i think tt was the first time i played such a game.okies.so the word i have to act out is beach.instead of acting out as a beach, i pretend to a bitch(female dog).haha.that was the most stupid thing i've ever done.if its for the sake of having fun..o0o welll...
basically, the whole night i spent with my sis, bel.we practically just chit chat and took pics of each other.the whole night.we only manage to catch 30 min of slp.and have to wake up at 8.cause me n zee need to go home to get ready for the mmsp(mr n ms sp).dang.
so the next day : reach home bout 12 frm the paris ris.initially, wanted to perform my friday prayers.but really, i was dead beat.my whole body rejected all the signals that were sent from my brain. so, i couldn't stand any longer.i doze off.woke up at 3.took a quick shower and changed to my player's wear. i've to meet zee,mir,fahmy and the ladies at sp fc 5 at 4.30pm for the mmsp
630 pm and we still standing outside the bloody convention centre.damn it.the weather was killing us and damn it la.i was wearing black formal top.the whole gala event supposed to start at 630 but we are only able to enter at 705 ??hais..disappointing man.i guess the whole event was quite a sucess except for the the entrance part and the q-ing up for the refreshments.to be frank,my favourite part is the dance performance put up by the contestants themselves.that was the best ah.esp the song hung up.fuuu.it was not the girls who caught my attention.haha.got this bulky,hunky contestant ah.he exaggerated the dance moves and he dance to fast la.haha.he really look like one congo dancing to dangdut song ah.aduu..tak blei tahan loorrr....lucky him.he got suave looks and chiselled bod.if not, he'll be the joke of the night.
11pm and still the results have not been revealed.dang.they were giving out trophies,plates and certificates to the organisers,yada yada yada.freaking draggy la.bloody anal.people also want to go home la.15 min.they announced the results.its bout time.damn it !! hairul did not win the mr sp title.wad the hell.i guess me and the others were shocked.he did so well.he mesmerized the crowd with his slique moves and his charm.he leave girls drooling when he was in his formal wear.he outsmart the other beautiful contestants apparently with child-like iq with his brilliant answer.and what did he get ?....3rd prize.hais.disappointed but i guess that's life.you may do well in the race.but there will be people who will try to bring you down.
1130 pm.me and zee were making our move to paris ris.we reached the chalet site at 12 30am(approximate timing).there were only a few people attended the 2nd day.my stomach was rumbling.i really cannot tahan.luckily,got some barbequed chicken wings.abes ah.sampedek ah.
from 1 to 3++..me n the other g unit members were just laughing throughout the whole 3 hrs.zee was cracking us up with his idiotic antics.haha.really.chang was drunk.wa..n some more he sat beside me.i just hate the smell of vodka.zee and chang left 4 am.hais.wasted.i could tahan no more.i went to bed with my sis.aiyo.pity her ah.i dominated the whole bed.sorry !!
woke up at 9.took a 30 min shower.fuuuu..."rejuvenating" sei.the water freaking cold la eventhough the heater was on.had my breakfast.i cooked crabsticks for meen n bel too.btw i boiled them in the kettle.too lazy to bbq.so just boil them ah.haha.n i had 5 oranges.i really really need my vitamin c cause ive not been having it for the past 3 days.so after breakfast, we quickly packed up and leave the site. we had a proper breakfast at mc dee.from 1030 to 1. well, i had 2 apple pies. i intended to have a meal but think again, all those salt, fats n msg inside my body.aiyo.so nvmla.i skipped.after our meal, we headed to barney's musical theater.yea..haha.we took loads of pics.kk.bout the pics, dont worry guys.i'll send them to you once yan repair my com this tues.latest, friday ah.
i think the best part was inside the mrt.me n bel were taking pics then suddenly,prattttttt...haha...belinda farted.haha.my goodness.it was bloody loud.haha.guess,it runs in the family ah,sis.haha.funny la.an mrt ride to be remembered.yups.well, guess that's all.to finish it all.we were all tired but happy..haha.this is so like my pri-1 compo la esp the ending..haha..kk.the end
[to tell or not to tell.it's just a matter of time]
Thursday, December 22, 2005
amin
lately, have been talking to my friends regarding dream partners in life.so i was thinking what kind of guy would a girl want.so this is what i think arr...
if that guy have all this attributes
- bernard's hairstyle
- zee's nose and smile
- amir's wicked humour and charm
- ryza's body and generousity
- meen's smile and patience
- syaiful's guitar skills and his devotion to Islam
- jevin's greens($$$)
- cheng how's brain and height(178cm.dream height ah)
okies.this sound so gay ah.but really ah.if you actually put all this factors together.power ah.really.its like a complete man ah.so give me your opininon.tag me.
okies.next topic.read bout this article.in aceh.the tsunami aftermath.it was no surprise practically almost everything got wiped out.but there's one thing that really grabbed my attention.there was this mini mosque in malay we call it surraw.it's made of plywood and it's the oldest structure in aceh as it has been standing there for the past 2 centuries. what surprises me is that not even a single defect on it.can you imagine it? everything that was made of metal and bricks that got in the tidal wave's way got demolished but not for the mosque and the best part is its just right beside the shore.Allahuakbar.Allahuakbar.observe the power of God.man.this is like the story prince of egypt or the 10 commandments.
this story truly inspired me alot.no matter how frail,fragile,vulnerable you are,but when there's faith in God, i can assure you, you'll always be in His mercy and protection.amin.
if that guy have all this attributes
- bernard's hairstyle
- zee's nose and smile
- amir's wicked humour and charm
- ryza's body and generousity
- meen's smile and patience
- syaiful's guitar skills and his devotion to Islam
- jevin's greens($$$)
- cheng how's brain and height(178cm.dream height ah)
okies.this sound so gay ah.but really ah.if you actually put all this factors together.power ah.really.its like a complete man ah.so give me your opininon.tag me.
okies.next topic.read bout this article.in aceh.the tsunami aftermath.it was no surprise practically almost everything got wiped out.but there's one thing that really grabbed my attention.there was this mini mosque in malay we call it surraw.it's made of plywood and it's the oldest structure in aceh as it has been standing there for the past 2 centuries. what surprises me is that not even a single defect on it.can you imagine it? everything that was made of metal and bricks that got in the tidal wave's way got demolished but not for the mosque and the best part is its just right beside the shore.Allahuakbar.Allahuakbar.observe the power of God.man.this is like the story prince of egypt or the 10 commandments.
this story truly inspired me alot.no matter how frail,fragile,vulnerable you are,but when there's faith in God, i can assure you, you'll always be in His mercy and protection.amin.
phobia
ks.i really had a bad evening last night and definitely, a to-be-remembered morning,today.damn it.last night, as zee and i were walking towards this bus stop.we saw this rat.k.to be honest, im totally afraid when comes to rats,roaches,dead cicaks,clowns and especially, water !! ks.back to the story.we saw this rat.i think one of the limbs was stucked in between the grills of the longkang.tts y it never really move.then, that zee, tried disturbing that rat.maybe, it got so scared,it just pull its stucked limb quickly.the sad part is it got detached.my goodness.haha.thx la zee.now that rat cacat oledy.
the next encounter was there was this cockroach(sapil..haha..spell it backwards).i was like jumping around to avoid it crawling into my pants.haha.then, that zee just give one kick to that innocent kacuak.instant death.with the wings and some of the "legs" separated from the body,i felt so sad for that creature.after the kacuak's death, i came out with this saying; " when there's suffering, there's compassion." it's true.it's damn true.
so last night, i dreamt bout my house been infested with roaches.aiyo.cannot tahan eh.until right now, still having goosebumps all over my body. errr....creeeeeepppppyyy...and just now was the best la.damn it.i was recharging my hp.then,i felt something cold beneath my feet.so i picked up using my toes.haha.habit oledy la.my gdness.put at my hands.wa..really ah..gossebumps oledy..dead cicak !!!! cannot tahan eh.walauwei.nak mati pon mati kat roma orang lain atau go die in my sis room.haha.aiyo..freaked out eh.i quickly took a small stack of tissue paper,scooped it with its tail tecabot then quickly dispose it.a lesson to be learnt.if i feel something cold and wet beneath my feet, don't pick it up !!!
man..2 days..many freaking encounters..ks..during the challet, plsss...no clowns...no water plsss...i mean it...i really can get really really scared..i got once i was too afraid to come out from the house.i was so traumatized,and i was practically shivering and shaking the whole day.well, i guess phobias are phobias.laugh at me if you want to.but try put yourself in my position.then, you'll know how it feels like.btw, reminder to guys.don't act macho.i know there's loads of weakness in you.
did i mention i'm also afraid of the lion dance's puppet also?
the next encounter was there was this cockroach(sapil..haha..spell it backwards).i was like jumping around to avoid it crawling into my pants.haha.then, that zee just give one kick to that innocent kacuak.instant death.with the wings and some of the "legs" separated from the body,i felt so sad for that creature.after the kacuak's death, i came out with this saying; " when there's suffering, there's compassion." it's true.it's damn true.
so last night, i dreamt bout my house been infested with roaches.aiyo.cannot tahan eh.until right now, still having goosebumps all over my body. errr....creeeeeepppppyyy...and just now was the best la.damn it.i was recharging my hp.then,i felt something cold beneath my feet.so i picked up using my toes.haha.habit oledy la.my gdness.put at my hands.wa..really ah..gossebumps oledy..dead cicak !!!! cannot tahan eh.walauwei.nak mati pon mati kat roma orang lain atau go die in my sis room.haha.aiyo..freaked out eh.i quickly took a small stack of tissue paper,scooped it with its tail tecabot then quickly dispose it.a lesson to be learnt.if i feel something cold and wet beneath my feet, don't pick it up !!!
man..2 days..many freaking encounters..ks..during the challet, plsss...no clowns...no water plsss...i mean it...i really can get really really scared..i got once i was too afraid to come out from the house.i was so traumatized,and i was practically shivering and shaking the whole day.well, i guess phobias are phobias.laugh at me if you want to.but try put yourself in my position.then, you'll know how it feels like.btw, reminder to guys.don't act macho.i know there's loads of weakness in you.
did i mention i'm also afraid of the lion dance's puppet also?
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
my story( the other side)
My Story ( the other side )
Often get comments on my name
was it given at birth ?
a God's gift ?
it will never happen to me
All the hurt vacancy, only words can reveal
its the only real thing i've got left to feel
remember the condescending conversation
how badly you want to eliminate me
reveal such emotion
you kept thinking you got the upper hand
never have you thought how much more i can stand
dont't ever make me have the upper hand
my thoughts slowly found the words
from these words turn infinite
silence is the sound of my pain
when i shot myself in the back again
gaze into truthfulness
you felt so faithless
stop holding on to me so tightly
cause i will never be the everything that you thought i would be
this is my story
my dose of reality
okies.oits wanee.this is the sequel of what i gonna show u.the prequel malas nak display.ks.u guys.enjoy.this is my show,my reality.
Often get comments on my name
was it given at birth ?
a God's gift ?
it will never happen to me
All the hurt vacancy, only words can reveal
its the only real thing i've got left to feel
remember the condescending conversation
how badly you want to eliminate me
reveal such emotion
you kept thinking you got the upper hand
never have you thought how much more i can stand
dont't ever make me have the upper hand
my thoughts slowly found the words
from these words turn infinite
silence is the sound of my pain
when i shot myself in the back again
gaze into truthfulness
you felt so faithless
stop holding on to me so tightly
cause i will never be the everything that you thought i would be
this is my story
my dose of reality
okies.oits wanee.this is the sequel of what i gonna show u.the prequel malas nak display.ks.u guys.enjoy.this is my show,my reality.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
fort minor
okies.just great.this is what i truly "need" right now.spyware invasion in my bloody com.crap sei.this week is my e-learning week and my com's down.okies.not really ah.it can't access to my all my mail and school accounts. damn it.i really hope kopi can come this thurs to get it repaired.i really need my msn.i dont mind if i cant access to my hotmail.not my msn !!! arrrrrggggghhhhh.suffering right now.really
so yesterday, got myself fort minor cd.for those who have not gotten the cd, get it now !! really kick ass. fort minor supposed to be a crew but if you listen,80% of the tracks sung by mike shinoda only.hmmmm.i wonder.okies.but the lyrics were kinda vulgar.they emphasized too much on the F word.that proves 2 things.its either they have low vocab or they just cant get enough of the F thing.well, thats what most blacks rap bout.
two weeks of holiday for me.but theres so much things to do.silat camp.challet.get my com fixed.baby sit my niece.study for tests.do IDEAS with ryza.train silat with my cousin (woi ryza.nak join tak?) hitting the gym with that amir.do my microbio report.aiyo.like that, my 2 wks kena burn sei.chilakas.
830 pm and im bored.i would probably msn-ing right now if it's not for the bloody spyware.kk.think i go perform my isyak prayers ah.o0ya.sg idol 2 coming out feb 11.registration for auditions starts from dec 31st. for amir and meen.say wanna join right.ahhh..quick quick..haha...31 dec..be the 1st few.haha.then on feb, the whole sg can see you two in ur 15 min of fame.to think of it, 15 min kinda long..dont make me malu ah. somemore you two are the sg idol prodigies.hehe.
so yesterday, got myself fort minor cd.for those who have not gotten the cd, get it now !! really kick ass. fort minor supposed to be a crew but if you listen,80% of the tracks sung by mike shinoda only.hmmmm.i wonder.okies.but the lyrics were kinda vulgar.they emphasized too much on the F word.that proves 2 things.its either they have low vocab or they just cant get enough of the F thing.well, thats what most blacks rap bout.
two weeks of holiday for me.but theres so much things to do.silat camp.challet.get my com fixed.baby sit my niece.study for tests.do IDEAS with ryza.train silat with my cousin (woi ryza.nak join tak?) hitting the gym with that amir.do my microbio report.aiyo.like that, my 2 wks kena burn sei.chilakas.
830 pm and im bored.i would probably msn-ing right now if it's not for the bloody spyware.kk.think i go perform my isyak prayers ah.o0ya.sg idol 2 coming out feb 11.registration for auditions starts from dec 31st. for amir and meen.say wanna join right.ahhh..quick quick..haha...31 dec..be the 1st few.haha.then on feb, the whole sg can see you two in ur 15 min of fame.to think of it, 15 min kinda long..dont make me malu ah. somemore you two are the sg idol prodigies.hehe.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
last day of skool.looking forward to my 2 wks break.finally !!
today, definitely a good way to end the whole term.simply no hwk.no reports.eh wait.theres one.damn it !! and best thing is no need to do tutorials..haha.
530 to 7pm: silat training.less than 15 turned up.today's training kinda cool.plenty of acrobatic moves that we learnt.n o0oya.i sparred with ryza again.haha.yea..this time round.i think it was an even match.both of us were continuously hitting and kicking each other.trying to pin(benteng) each other down.damn it.he's gd.i guess.but i guess i'll be looking forward to our next sparring session.haha.habes ah kau rahim tempeh aka brad pitt.hehe
balqis and shah were the main highlight of the whole training.balqis, when she spar, she really can make any guy pee in the pants,man.really.i aint kidding.she'll hit that person non-stop and the best thing is all those hits were precise.and you know what.we aint wearing any body paddings.best la.
shah was fantastic today.haha.with his songkok on.haha.i think must be the berkat of wearing songkok ah.he fought gracefully.trust me.it's like almost an exhibition match.simply superb.he pinned khairil down.yea !!!!!!!!haha.i just love to see my seniors defeated by the yr 1s.haha
930pm: was busy dancing.heard there will be a dance competition.simply cant wait.if there's a solo catorgery, think might dance to the song lose control or maybe yeah.i don't know.eh meen.if the competition is on, let me show you how it's done.you don't step usher everytime.action speaks louder than words.hehe.peace.
11pm: was lying on my bed thinking of the people whom i care and read all the bday cards that they gave to me.touching ah.never once in my life i receive so many presents and cakes bashes during my bday.well, this 18th bday is definitely a day to remember.man.im getting old.that's for sure
i know this may sound so not me but haha.i already watch the show a walk to remember 3 times.now im planning to watch it again later maybe around 1 am.haha.if u guys havent watch,better catch it.simply a beautiful story.great story line.i didn't realise mandy moore can act so well.hmm..i cried during the show.yea.call me emo for all i care.i really cant tahan this kind of movies ah.aiyo.for sure will shed tears.so if u guys wanna watch movie with me, please, no emo shows ah.if u still insist, better get ready tissue paper.loads of them.hehe.this proves something.im just like ferrero roche.crispy and slightly hard on the surface.but creamy and soft on the inside.
okies.gtg.need to do some push ups.adious, kids. [to tell or not to tell.it's just a matter of time]
today, definitely a good way to end the whole term.simply no hwk.no reports.eh wait.theres one.damn it !! and best thing is no need to do tutorials..haha.
530 to 7pm: silat training.less than 15 turned up.today's training kinda cool.plenty of acrobatic moves that we learnt.n o0oya.i sparred with ryza again.haha.yea..this time round.i think it was an even match.both of us were continuously hitting and kicking each other.trying to pin(benteng) each other down.damn it.he's gd.i guess.but i guess i'll be looking forward to our next sparring session.haha.habes ah kau rahim tempeh aka brad pitt.hehe
balqis and shah were the main highlight of the whole training.balqis, when she spar, she really can make any guy pee in the pants,man.really.i aint kidding.she'll hit that person non-stop and the best thing is all those hits were precise.and you know what.we aint wearing any body paddings.best la.
shah was fantastic today.haha.with his songkok on.haha.i think must be the berkat of wearing songkok ah.he fought gracefully.trust me.it's like almost an exhibition match.simply superb.he pinned khairil down.yea !!!!!!!!haha.i just love to see my seniors defeated by the yr 1s.haha
930pm: was busy dancing.heard there will be a dance competition.simply cant wait.if there's a solo catorgery, think might dance to the song lose control or maybe yeah.i don't know.eh meen.if the competition is on, let me show you how it's done.you don't step usher everytime.action speaks louder than words.hehe.peace.
11pm: was lying on my bed thinking of the people whom i care and read all the bday cards that they gave to me.touching ah.never once in my life i receive so many presents and cakes bashes during my bday.well, this 18th bday is definitely a day to remember.man.im getting old.that's for sure
i know this may sound so not me but haha.i already watch the show a walk to remember 3 times.now im planning to watch it again later maybe around 1 am.haha.if u guys havent watch,better catch it.simply a beautiful story.great story line.i didn't realise mandy moore can act so well.hmm..i cried during the show.yea.call me emo for all i care.i really cant tahan this kind of movies ah.aiyo.for sure will shed tears.so if u guys wanna watch movie with me, please, no emo shows ah.if u still insist, better get ready tissue paper.loads of them.hehe.this proves something.im just like ferrero roche.crispy and slightly hard on the surface.but creamy and soft on the inside.
okies.gtg.need to do some push ups.adious, kids. [to tell or not to tell.it's just a matter of time]
Friday, December 16, 2005
finally
"hell week" has finally come to an end.4 formal reports completed.3 tests done.15 hrs of sleep(accumulated).reach home at 9.every single day.my msn is down.damn it.spyware !!!!! crap hole..
today the whole torture ended 830 pm in the library.was printing the last page of io chemistry report and a theres a huge smile on my face.
so as i was at the library packing up my things, there was a couple behind me.yea. i know theres no one around except me but plss...u want hanky panky pon..tempat la lain..
GUY : c'mon...(as he bites his gf arm)
GIRL: eh stop it la.continue with our study(but still, she was kinda embracing him)
hmm.if u guys wanna know i was just right infront of them.haha.man.lucky thing, im leaving the place.if not, abes, report tak abes2.
so i left the the library.i was thinking of which route to take.go to foodcourt 5 or T3.damn it la..both routes freaking creepy la.chicken.my school was like freaking dark.i think they nv pay pub bills ah.but in the end, i took the t3 way.
as i was on my way home(i walk back home.sports for life,babe!), i saw this hunk ah.he was doing his night jog.he was hmm...half naked but the jogging shorts is so bloody short.honestly speaking, i was green with envy when i look at his bod.but when he came closer to me.man.bad B.O.talkin bout bad B.O, my fam have sensitive noses.my sis currently having her sp orientation camp.she was playing a game with her team members.unfortunately, one of her members, his B.O was simply unbearable. he was placing his arm aroun my sis shoulders..sumtink like tt.n something hilarious happened..haha...she puked on the spot..haha...my gdness.when my sis told me bout this, i just couldn't stop laughing..haha..kk.note to all smelly and not smelly guys..use deodrant !! not smelly also, still apply..haha.at least, u smell gd ma...
reached home roun hmm...9.freaking tired.brain fried.legs wobbly.eyes tired.but still make the time to do my push ups since ive not been visiting the gym since last sat.took a long shower and perform my prayers.
man.i forgot to mention something while i was on my way back home.i saw this lady.very minah-ish.well, from far, she look kinda hot.but as we came closer,haha...my gdness...she really look like suhailie from wcp mc dee.arrrrgggggghhhhhhh!!!! nightmare sei..haha.worst.she was like smiling at me....aiiiyeerrrr......haha...i think before sleep, better do my ablution.haha..really dont want any nasty dreams..haha.
orite kids...me freaking sleepy ryt now..gtg.so its just another tale of mr jon johnson aka md hidayat.hope u deserved-to-be-knocked on the head kids enjoy my story.nites.
today the whole torture ended 830 pm in the library.was printing the last page of io chemistry report and a theres a huge smile on my face.
so as i was at the library packing up my things, there was a couple behind me.yea. i know theres no one around except me but plss...u want hanky panky pon..tempat la lain..
GUY : c'mon...(as he bites his gf arm)
GIRL: eh stop it la.continue with our study(but still, she was kinda embracing him)
hmm.if u guys wanna know i was just right infront of them.haha.man.lucky thing, im leaving the place.if not, abes, report tak abes2.
so i left the the library.i was thinking of which route to take.go to foodcourt 5 or T3.damn it la..both routes freaking creepy la.chicken.my school was like freaking dark.i think they nv pay pub bills ah.but in the end, i took the t3 way.
as i was on my way home(i walk back home.sports for life,babe!), i saw this hunk ah.he was doing his night jog.he was hmm...half naked but the jogging shorts is so bloody short.honestly speaking, i was green with envy when i look at his bod.but when he came closer to me.man.bad B.O.talkin bout bad B.O, my fam have sensitive noses.my sis currently having her sp orientation camp.she was playing a game with her team members.unfortunately, one of her members, his B.O was simply unbearable. he was placing his arm aroun my sis shoulders..sumtink like tt.n something hilarious happened..haha...she puked on the spot..haha...my gdness.when my sis told me bout this, i just couldn't stop laughing..haha..kk.note to all smelly and not smelly guys..use deodrant !! not smelly also, still apply..haha.at least, u smell gd ma...
reached home roun hmm...9.freaking tired.brain fried.legs wobbly.eyes tired.but still make the time to do my push ups since ive not been visiting the gym since last sat.took a long shower and perform my prayers.
man.i forgot to mention something while i was on my way back home.i saw this lady.very minah-ish.well, from far, she look kinda hot.but as we came closer,haha...my gdness...she really look like suhailie from wcp mc dee.arrrrgggggghhhhhhh!!!! nightmare sei..haha.worst.she was like smiling at me....aiiiyeerrrr......haha...i think before sleep, better do my ablution.haha..really dont want any nasty dreams..haha.
orite kids...me freaking sleepy ryt now..gtg.so its just another tale of mr jon johnson aka md hidayat.hope u deserved-to-be-knocked on the head kids enjoy my story.nites.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
hell
man.this week is definitely a killer week.hell for me.busy mugging while others happily going round and having fun. damn it.my holix is just few days away but still,i could feel the burn. head is getting heavy and tonnes of work start to pile up.damn it. for those who are still waiting for your o level results, enjoy as much as you can. make the best out of your holidays.once holidays are up, "hell" is definitely waiting for you.
talking bout hell, just had spreadsheet test earlier in the day.simply demoralising.heart crushing.i cant even do a single question.crap.i didn't realize those tiny blocks from microsoft excel can be such a killer.i was wondering what micro.excel got to to with chemical process ? hmm..what i only know never add potassium in water ah..abes..meletop..haha
this course has really been one hell of a ride for me.i just couldn't cope with the never ending reports, tests and homework.i guess this is the price to pay if i want to accomplish what i always wanted.to be a scientist.=]
talking bout hell, just had spreadsheet test earlier in the day.simply demoralising.heart crushing.i cant even do a single question.crap.i didn't realize those tiny blocks from microsoft excel can be such a killer.i was wondering what micro.excel got to to with chemical process ? hmm..what i only know never add potassium in water ah..abes..meletop..haha
this course has really been one hell of a ride for me.i just couldn't cope with the never ending reports, tests and homework.i guess this is the price to pay if i want to accomplish what i always wanted.to be a scientist.=]
Saturday, December 10, 2005
things that happened yesterday: went to wheelock after school to get my handphone repaired with ryza.okies.at that time,i was kinda craving for caffe mocha.haha.coincidentally, starbucks was offering free tall size drinks.yups.but of course, the queue was very long(expected.who dont want free drinks sia).was queuing up for 15 min i guess.finally,i ordered two mocha.hmm.settled down on a bench once we got our drinks.sat there from 6 to 730.met many interesting people.yups.tall ones.short ones.thin ones.thick ones.straight to faggots.haha.yea.some would probably make your knees so weak.o0oya.i met one of my silat seniors,kadir.yups.man.with his girlfriend.man.then, we met Mark Lee !! with his wife.wait.is he married ? haha.yups.he was wearing this pink top and carrying this weird totte bag.hmm.very ah-beng ish.
so around 8+, make our way home.saw my ex vice head prefect, asri.man.my heart, at that point of time was burning.i always wanted to get even with him for the things that he has done to me.from humiliating me infront of the board to threathening to sack me. i mean yea.juniors do make mistakes.but you don't have to go to that kind of extent.just because i've good rapport with the head-prefect, he's jealous.it's not like as if she's his gf.n btw, she dont even enjoy working with him.well, could still remember he banged my head on the wall just because i create a minor mistake on the duty sheet.man.even the head prefect was not fussy bout it.sometimes i just don't get it. you may not be the head of authorities but you're pretending to be one.get a life.
i can list down all the bad deeds that he has done to me.but i guess it's not worth it.it's the thing of the past.like what i usually mention in my entries, the past is what the future holds. i had a bad past as junior.but at least, i dont treat my juniors the way he treated me when i became a senior.i do care bout how junior feels.okies.enough bout him. hope that would be the last time i'll be seeing him.
today : i was thinking bout my course and what kind of job prospects would i get. a chemist.a food microbiologists.polymer microbiologists.a technologists.a life science lecturer.a maths and science teacher.a chef ? haha.this are the possibilities if things go according to plan. but if don't, i must quickly think of backup plans.
you guys should think of what you gonna do with your future.yea i know we are young with minimal amount of worries.but have you thought of creating a good life for yourselves in future? think bout it.it's bout time we should wake up and start working our ass off.we are reaching 20. i guess it should be the turning points of our lives.
for guys,once you finish ns, you better come out with something intelligent.dont ever think of getting married after ns unless you have a stable financial status.dont just depend on your good looks or fame.it'll lead you to nowhere.think practical.you need money and a good heart to give you a proper decent home and family.yups.think bout it people.the future is in your hands.i've shown you the direction to the door.all you have to do is to unlock the door.go for it.
much love from me, md hidayat
so around 8+, make our way home.saw my ex vice head prefect, asri.man.my heart, at that point of time was burning.i always wanted to get even with him for the things that he has done to me.from humiliating me infront of the board to threathening to sack me. i mean yea.juniors do make mistakes.but you don't have to go to that kind of extent.just because i've good rapport with the head-prefect, he's jealous.it's not like as if she's his gf.n btw, she dont even enjoy working with him.well, could still remember he banged my head on the wall just because i create a minor mistake on the duty sheet.man.even the head prefect was not fussy bout it.sometimes i just don't get it. you may not be the head of authorities but you're pretending to be one.get a life.
i can list down all the bad deeds that he has done to me.but i guess it's not worth it.it's the thing of the past.like what i usually mention in my entries, the past is what the future holds. i had a bad past as junior.but at least, i dont treat my juniors the way he treated me when i became a senior.i do care bout how junior feels.okies.enough bout him. hope that would be the last time i'll be seeing him.
today : i was thinking bout my course and what kind of job prospects would i get. a chemist.a food microbiologists.polymer microbiologists.a technologists.a life science lecturer.a maths and science teacher.a chef ? haha.this are the possibilities if things go according to plan. but if don't, i must quickly think of backup plans.
you guys should think of what you gonna do with your future.yea i know we are young with minimal amount of worries.but have you thought of creating a good life for yourselves in future? think bout it.it's bout time we should wake up and start working our ass off.we are reaching 20. i guess it should be the turning points of our lives.
for guys,once you finish ns, you better come out with something intelligent.dont ever think of getting married after ns unless you have a stable financial status.dont just depend on your good looks or fame.it'll lead you to nowhere.think practical.you need money and a good heart to give you a proper decent home and family.yups.think bout it people.the future is in your hands.i've shown you the direction to the door.all you have to do is to unlock the door.go for it.
much love from me, md hidayat
Thursday, December 08, 2005
chocolate cakes
today in class : well had a pretty good conversation with my buddy,ryza aka rahim tempeh.we just cant stop talking in class especially during maths lesson.i kinda hate my maths teacher.he kinda reminds me of my sec sch POA teacher, teo ah siong.i just cant stand the white precipitate on his lips and of course,his teaching style.but the good thing is those imperfections lead ryza and me to a very interesting topic," friends and chocolate cakes.what do they have in common?"
as you can people, close friends,loved ones are like chocolate cakes.it just taste so nice that you just cant stop indulging in it.you look at the cake.you want to taste it.once you taste it,the desire for more is there.you take a spoonful.then slowly,you'll finish up the whole slice.you even forgot bout other ppl's share.you became selfish.
so what im trying to imply is "chocolate cakes"are basically not to be shared with people.if u just have a slice of cake only and your friends want to taste,let them.but always,always remember,always stay on guard with the fork in your hand.just in case,they finish it up.u can just..hehe..you should know..
so its just another fable from md hidayat.hope you kids enjoy the story.have a nice,chocolatey day.
as you can people, close friends,loved ones are like chocolate cakes.it just taste so nice that you just cant stop indulging in it.you look at the cake.you want to taste it.once you taste it,the desire for more is there.you take a spoonful.then slowly,you'll finish up the whole slice.you even forgot bout other ppl's share.you became selfish.
so what im trying to imply is "chocolate cakes"are basically not to be shared with people.if u just have a slice of cake only and your friends want to taste,let them.but always,always remember,always stay on guard with the fork in your hand.just in case,they finish it up.u can just..hehe..you should know..
so its just another fable from md hidayat.hope you kids enjoy the story.have a nice,chocolatey day.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
hectic and weird are words of the day
8 30 am: spotted this two working ladies waiting for cab.okies.have to admit the chinese lady was hot.the other indian lady.o0owell.think is in her 40's.ya.as i was saying.they were waiting for a taxi.then a cab arrived.the indian lady was infront of the chinese lady.but unfortunately, the taxi driver picked up the chinese lady.so much for the harmonious multi-racial country.so cliche of men. include me if u wish to.but at least i know where i stand.
10am: hmm.i dont rili whats my lecturer's name.i always address him as sir.i truly don't know whats wrong with him.he has been acting weird lately.he has been so temperamental and scold us for nothing.my classmate, was late for 5 min.but he was accused for being 30 min late.so my friend tried to fight for his right but of course,in a more gentle manner.but tt son of a gun, he just volleyed him a "shut up !!".my goodness.now my classmate decided to pursue the matter to the authorities.okies.enought said bout them.
5.15 to 6.15 pm : maths test was killer to many.yups.well, for me, i managed to complete the paper.but i think i missed out like ten marks just because i don't know whats the value of 1 radian.man.but at least, im quite confident enough of passing.to score ? dream on.
for the past 3 wks : well, i guess God has been testing my faith for Him. it's really a hurdle for me.never felt so damn pressurized before.my head is like as its been slowly compressed by a tensile machine.having so much porblems.really not a great way to start being 18.yups.well,i truly hope all these probs would come to an end.the sooner the better
to show or not to show.it's just a matter of time.
8 30 am: spotted this two working ladies waiting for cab.okies.have to admit the chinese lady was hot.the other indian lady.o0owell.think is in her 40's.ya.as i was saying.they were waiting for a taxi.then a cab arrived.the indian lady was infront of the chinese lady.but unfortunately, the taxi driver picked up the chinese lady.so much for the harmonious multi-racial country.so cliche of men. include me if u wish to.but at least i know where i stand.
10am: hmm.i dont rili whats my lecturer's name.i always address him as sir.i truly don't know whats wrong with him.he has been acting weird lately.he has been so temperamental and scold us for nothing.my classmate, was late for 5 min.but he was accused for being 30 min late.so my friend tried to fight for his right but of course,in a more gentle manner.but tt son of a gun, he just volleyed him a "shut up !!".my goodness.now my classmate decided to pursue the matter to the authorities.okies.enought said bout them.
5.15 to 6.15 pm : maths test was killer to many.yups.well, for me, i managed to complete the paper.but i think i missed out like ten marks just because i don't know whats the value of 1 radian.man.but at least, im quite confident enough of passing.to score ? dream on.
for the past 3 wks : well, i guess God has been testing my faith for Him. it's really a hurdle for me.never felt so damn pressurized before.my head is like as its been slowly compressed by a tensile machine.having so much porblems.really not a great way to start being 18.yups.well,i truly hope all these probs would come to an end.the sooner the better
to show or not to show.it's just a matter of time.
Monday, December 05, 2005
angel of poetry
Angel of poetry
shattered dreams and broken promises
restarts that will never end
searching in this hardened world
for another tender-hearted friend
being skeptical all around
less hopeful day by day
tired of chasing rainbows
falsely put within the way
i know the way that you've travelled
for i've take that path, too
patiently searching for a tenderheart
finally, i found you
angel of poetry
take me to a place you call love
set me free to a place of no misery
no catastrophe
shattered dreams and broken promises
restarts that will never end
searching in this hardened world
for another tender-hearted friend
being skeptical all around
less hopeful day by day
tired of chasing rainbows
falsely put within the way
i know the way that you've travelled
for i've take that path, too
patiently searching for a tenderheart
finally, i found you
angel of poetry
take me to a place you call love
set me free to a place of no misery
no catastrophe
Friday, December 02, 2005
prayers
my prayers
Dear God
im down on my knees
with hands put up high
begging for your mercy
wishing that you could accept me with Your arms wide open
never ending sins enveloping my life
feeling anguish and remorse
for the miseries that i've caused
for the friendships that i've lost
assiduous, i've turned into
the harder i try,the harder i fall
people just want everything
but what i can think of is You
they may want it all
but i dont want nothing at all
diamond rings.the world.means nothing at all
if i ain't got You
Allahuakbar
the words i want to say
Astagfirullah
nothing can be more essential at the end of my day
I'm obliged to You
Your love for us can never be obliterated
nothing else can be pure and true
just an oath from me to You
Dear God
im down on my knees
with hands put up high
begging for your mercy
wishing that you could accept me with Your arms wide open
never ending sins enveloping my life
feeling anguish and remorse
for the miseries that i've caused
for the friendships that i've lost
assiduous, i've turned into
the harder i try,the harder i fall
people just want everything
but what i can think of is You
they may want it all
but i dont want nothing at all
diamond rings.the world.means nothing at all
if i ain't got You
Allahuakbar
the words i want to say
Astagfirullah
nothing can be more essential at the end of my day
I'm obliged to You
Your love for us can never be obliterated
nothing else can be pure and true
just an oath from me to You
fear
FEAR
There's primal fear like a baby blinded by the dark
There's lingering fear like never ending high expectations
There's groundless fear like a dark day covered by a clear night
There's inarticulate fear like a little fish wolfed down by a shark
There's mortal fear like a soul baffled by the fiery hell
There's undying fear like the heart would swell
There's cryptic fear like a stranger waiting at your doorstep
There's fatal fear like falling prey to a predator
There's introverted fear we've invented by ourselves
And unfortunately, we just got to live it.i swear
There's lingering fear like never ending high expectations
There's groundless fear like a dark day covered by a clear night
There's inarticulate fear like a little fish wolfed down by a shark
There's mortal fear like a soul baffled by the fiery hell
There's undying fear like the heart would swell
There's cryptic fear like a stranger waiting at your doorstep
There's fatal fear like falling prey to a predator
There's introverted fear we've invented by ourselves
And unfortunately, we just got to live it.i swear
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
scale of love
"SCALES OF LOVE"
Remember when love
was so simple:
Love notes
Winking eyes
Warm hugs
Clumsy kisses
Remember when love
Became daring:
Dates
Sex
Phone calls
Gifts
Remember when love
Became challenging:
Heartache
Pain
Frustration
Neglect
Now remember
The love we share :
Ponder.
Reflect .
Contemplate.
Weigh it.
Is it worthy
To be cherished?
think bout it ppl.
plss think.tag okies.
ps.this is not a poem
Remember when love
was so simple:
Love notes
Winking eyes
Warm hugs
Clumsy kisses
Remember when love
Became daring:
Dates
Sex
Phone calls
Gifts
Remember when love
Became challenging:
Heartache
Pain
Frustration
Neglect
Now remember
The love we share :
Ponder.
Reflect .
Contemplate.
Weigh it.
Is it worthy
To be cherished?
think bout it ppl.
plss think.tag okies.
ps.this is not a poem
nothing special
im bored right now.i mean it.really bored.tired.crappy.any remedy anyone ?
ks.new rhyme coming up.
working with my family on our own version of belaian jiwa with hint of jazz.its just instrumental
aight.peace.
ks.new rhyme coming up.
working with my family on our own version of belaian jiwa with hint of jazz.its just instrumental
aight.peace.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
happy bdae
happy b'day to me.happy b'day to me.happy b'day to hidayat.happy b'day to me.yes yes.18's the age.hopefully should be a good thing.hais.man.indeed im getting old.becoming old = more responsibilties + more money required.haha.oO well.lets look on the bright side.
ytd was simply awesome.i really had the time of my life.this would probably be one of the best bdays.i wouldn't want to trade it for the world.okies.i dont mind having jessica alba.hehe.
well the day started out badly.it was raining heavily.got no choice but to bring along my umbrella.i made the restaurant reservations at 3 30.as usual.my INNUENDOL friends,zee,mir and meen n az were late.hais.typical them.my gdness.lunch.what a spread.we had like almost 6 different dishes.but sadly,the amt of rice compared to the dishes was simply aduuu.nvm.but of course.before the meal.i was usher-licious with my fine head to toe dressing. but after the meal, i think u cant even differentiate between me and fat joe.haha.
the post meal activity was indeed very very nice.unwrapping presents.was simply touched my my g unit members' gesture.zee got me this slickest belt i ever seen.customise belt with my name on it.man.its the 1st time he actually gave me a present.well, of course,it's the 1st time i give him a present too.haha.then, it was amir's n az's present.my gdness.they purposely want to test my patience.they wrapped the present with 18 layers of newspaper.n of course,initially i dono bout it.i took my own sweet time.on the 5 th layer, i start to speed up.o0o well.what a sweet surprise.a calendar of hot swimsuit models.man.each day different model.man.haha.definitely a sweet surprise.i truly feel like a "man" right now.haha.n meen.thx for the cake.bel.thx for turning up.sowie i only blanja u ice tea.g unit,u guys simply rock ah.well, at least to me.
so round 5, we headed down to ps starbucks to meet up with my hmm.patience testing, deserved to be jitak but forever sweet friend,wanee.but crap.we waited for almost half an hr just for her.thk God.its my bday.if not, abes ah.o0oya.azzie aka michelle branch turned up oso.kinda great ah.the more the merrier.the zee treated us drinks.for me, i had rhumba frap n caffe mocha.man.the mocha was bad.maybe i think the barista is new or he aint doin his job properly.o0oya.did i mention.azlina looked hippy yesterday.haha.with the head band and very loud color shirt.yups.but still, she looked great.
around 8 +, we headed down to water front.here comes the real fun.haha.cake cutting "ceremony".haha.1st tym, slice a cake using a butcher's knife.haha.it's the 1st time i had cake fight.yups.belinda started it.damn it.i was hit like multiple times especially on face n hair.jialat.free facials and "oil-based gel".n of course, a bday will never be complete w/o taking pics.plenty of memorable moments.something to remininsce bout.
i must say a day without smile n joy is a day wasted.life is too short.you don't know when you gonna go.make the best out of life.have a blast while u're at it.smile and thk God that u're still alive.well, i do.alhamdulilah( thk God)
ytd was simply awesome.i really had the time of my life.this would probably be one of the best bdays.i wouldn't want to trade it for the world.okies.i dont mind having jessica alba.hehe.
well the day started out badly.it was raining heavily.got no choice but to bring along my umbrella.i made the restaurant reservations at 3 30.as usual.my INNUENDOL friends,zee,mir and meen n az were late.hais.typical them.my gdness.lunch.what a spread.we had like almost 6 different dishes.but sadly,the amt of rice compared to the dishes was simply aduuu.nvm.but of course.before the meal.i was usher-licious with my fine head to toe dressing. but after the meal, i think u cant even differentiate between me and fat joe.haha.
the post meal activity was indeed very very nice.unwrapping presents.was simply touched my my g unit members' gesture.zee got me this slickest belt i ever seen.customise belt with my name on it.man.its the 1st time he actually gave me a present.well, of course,it's the 1st time i give him a present too.haha.then, it was amir's n az's present.my gdness.they purposely want to test my patience.they wrapped the present with 18 layers of newspaper.n of course,initially i dono bout it.i took my own sweet time.on the 5 th layer, i start to speed up.o0o well.what a sweet surprise.a calendar of hot swimsuit models.man.each day different model.man.haha.definitely a sweet surprise.i truly feel like a "man" right now.haha.n meen.thx for the cake.bel.thx for turning up.sowie i only blanja u ice tea.g unit,u guys simply rock ah.well, at least to me.
so round 5, we headed down to ps starbucks to meet up with my hmm.patience testing, deserved to be jitak but forever sweet friend,wanee.but crap.we waited for almost half an hr just for her.thk God.its my bday.if not, abes ah.o0oya.azzie aka michelle branch turned up oso.kinda great ah.the more the merrier.the zee treated us drinks.for me, i had rhumba frap n caffe mocha.man.the mocha was bad.maybe i think the barista is new or he aint doin his job properly.o0oya.did i mention.azlina looked hippy yesterday.haha.with the head band and very loud color shirt.yups.but still, she looked great.
around 8 +, we headed down to water front.here comes the real fun.haha.cake cutting "ceremony".haha.1st tym, slice a cake using a butcher's knife.haha.it's the 1st time i had cake fight.yups.belinda started it.damn it.i was hit like multiple times especially on face n hair.jialat.free facials and "oil-based gel".n of course, a bday will never be complete w/o taking pics.plenty of memorable moments.something to remininsce bout.
i must say a day without smile n joy is a day wasted.life is too short.you don't know when you gonna go.make the best out of life.have a blast while u're at it.smile and thk God that u're still alive.well, i do.alhamdulilah( thk God)
Friday, November 25, 2005
fun day
a day without laughter is a day wasted.extracted from my good friend,mr ryza.
today is simply fantastic.to be honest, i wouldn't want the day to end.i must say i truly had loads of fun with my very much doted class.haha.o0owell this is how it started.
as usual,i'll be the early bird for every thursday.class starts at 8 am but due to my punctuality or i must say,my dad's, i have to stay outside the lab.crap hole sey.thank God.i got my bio bk with me to keep me awake.but still.
the whole fun begins right after my practical.haha.we actually had 6 hrs of break.due to the absence of our io chem teacher.he said he got some meeting at some hotel.hmm..i wonder..
as my class were busy preparing for the 1st test in this new semester,victor was trying to figure out how to memorize the list of organisms grps.in descending order D,K,D,C,O,F,G,S.okies.this is what he came out with.Singapore Girls F*ck own C***bye Damn Keen Domain.haha.dirty but i find it easier to memorize that way.haha.thx Vic.
talking bout Vic.he just found out that my maths teacher is sick in a way.
Mr Ong : Alo VIc !!
Vic : alo
Mr Ong : how are u ? ( as he come closer to vic and wrapped his right arm round his waist)
haha.imagine ure in vic's position and that teacher is old and of course,everythings saggy(head to toe) and he just wrapped his arm round u.man.make my pee pee go purrrrrr..
vic,kelvin and wee cheong were high todae.indeed very high.they kept telling dirty but yet,educational jokes and none of us can really concentrate on bio.haha.fhm+playboy and micro bio ? what do they have in common ? go figure it out.thk God.at least the paper wasn't that much of a hurdle.
o0ya.did i mention we even set up a new club.anti-babi club.haha.founder : ah wee. members: me, ryza and chewbacca(syaiful's alter ego) .ah wee !! friday prayers tml ?
okies.after the test,time to de-stress.retail theraphy.haha.$200 gone within an hr.my gdness.definitely a new record for me.i splurge $70 just for a cap.kinda ex but heck.its bloody player-ish.i wanted the brown color cap.but crap hole.this son of a gd mother.took the last 7/1/2 piece.lucky him.i got patience.trust me.you don't like me when i'm angry(turning green)
then bought zee's bdae present.hope he likes it.if he don't.abes ah.kene wrang wrang.hehe.
okies.i think i just end here before i bore u guys to death.ps.turning 18 this wkend.simply cant wait.=)
usher's bling bling.lebron sneaks.nokia n91.alicia keys' unplugged cd.star wars complete set.volkswagen lime green beetle.hint.hint.hehe
today is simply fantastic.to be honest, i wouldn't want the day to end.i must say i truly had loads of fun with my very much doted class.haha.o0owell this is how it started.
as usual,i'll be the early bird for every thursday.class starts at 8 am but due to my punctuality or i must say,my dad's, i have to stay outside the lab.crap hole sey.thank God.i got my bio bk with me to keep me awake.but still.
the whole fun begins right after my practical.haha.we actually had 6 hrs of break.due to the absence of our io chem teacher.he said he got some meeting at some hotel.hmm..i wonder..
as my class were busy preparing for the 1st test in this new semester,victor was trying to figure out how to memorize the list of organisms grps.in descending order D,K,D,C,O,F,G,S.okies.this is what he came out with.Singapore Girls F*ck own C***bye Damn Keen Domain.haha.dirty but i find it easier to memorize that way.haha.thx Vic.
talking bout Vic.he just found out that my maths teacher is sick in a way.
Mr Ong : Alo VIc !!
Vic : alo
Mr Ong : how are u ? ( as he come closer to vic and wrapped his right arm round his waist)
haha.imagine ure in vic's position and that teacher is old and of course,everythings saggy(head to toe) and he just wrapped his arm round u.man.make my pee pee go purrrrrr..
vic,kelvin and wee cheong were high todae.indeed very high.they kept telling dirty but yet,educational jokes and none of us can really concentrate on bio.haha.fhm+playboy and micro bio ? what do they have in common ? go figure it out.thk God.at least the paper wasn't that much of a hurdle.
o0ya.did i mention we even set up a new club.anti-babi club.haha.founder : ah wee. members: me, ryza and chewbacca(syaiful's alter ego) .ah wee !! friday prayers tml ?
okies.after the test,time to de-stress.retail theraphy.haha.$200 gone within an hr.my gdness.definitely a new record for me.i splurge $70 just for a cap.kinda ex but heck.its bloody player-ish.i wanted the brown color cap.but crap hole.this son of a gd mother.took the last 7/1/2 piece.lucky him.i got patience.trust me.you don't like me when i'm angry(turning green)
then bought zee's bdae present.hope he likes it.if he don't.abes ah.kene wrang wrang.hehe.
okies.i think i just end here before i bore u guys to death.ps.turning 18 this wkend.simply cant wait.=)
usher's bling bling.lebron sneaks.nokia n91.alicia keys' unplugged cd.star wars complete set.volkswagen lime green beetle.hint.hint.hehe
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
lesson's boring right now.its bores me to death.trust me.if u think computer work is fun,think again.my eyes are freaking heavy right now.damn it.nothing can be more boring than this.dang.okies.i miss wkends.i miss holidays.please come back quick.haha.i truly need u.where were u when i truly need u.
man.tonnes of assignments to do.loads of reports need to be completed.its like as if im non-stop working robot.everyday been working my ass off.physically n mentally drenched.but still holding on strong.i guess.tests commencing this thurs.1st hurdle.microbio.so little chapters but so much things to learn.
i got to tell u.the physical things does not define whats within.even a hard-rock hero like me do cry eh.haha.wanee.thx for the painting and the hmm..tumbler.still haven't use eh.too nice to be used ah.damn touched.btw,i'm working on my belaian jiwa instrumental with my dad.dad with his acoustic guitar and my sis.her saxaphone.it sud be abit of jazz.me the composer.haha.kk.once its done.i go burn into a cd then pass it to u ya.
kk.need to pay attention oledy.teacher's coming towards my direction.i'm so dead.
man.tonnes of assignments to do.loads of reports need to be completed.its like as if im non-stop working robot.everyday been working my ass off.physically n mentally drenched.but still holding on strong.i guess.tests commencing this thurs.1st hurdle.microbio.so little chapters but so much things to learn.
i got to tell u.the physical things does not define whats within.even a hard-rock hero like me do cry eh.haha.wanee.thx for the painting and the hmm..tumbler.still haven't use eh.too nice to be used ah.damn touched.btw,i'm working on my belaian jiwa instrumental with my dad.dad with his acoustic guitar and my sis.her saxaphone.it sud be abit of jazz.me the composer.haha.kk.once its done.i go burn into a cd then pass it to u ya.
kk.need to pay attention oledy.teacher's coming towards my direction.i'm so dead.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
rejuvenated
hey.damn its been like 2 months since i last blog.haha.loads of bumpings around and new experiences.indeed, i have plenty to tell.maybe i start off with my semestral break.very rejuvenating.i truly need that break.i was so worn out for the 1st semester.everything was so hectic and fast paced.that explained my poor GPA.o0o well.i aint going to repeat the same mistakes again.this may sound abit absurd and out of this world to many people but i planning to get at least 3As.(ryza,if ure reading this,jgn ingat aku gile) yups.i think its bout time i should pull up my socks.
the recent month of ramadhan was very memorable and to be cherished.i felt like as if i've been reborn.i guess.i don't know.i felt cleaner spiritually and mentally.during that mth,i felt like as if i was going at the right path to God.hey.not only,bonds between family and friends have strengthen especially with my gd looking, son of a gun,deserved to be jitak friend,amir.haha.i spent all my ramadhan wkends with him.just working out in the gym.in the evening,performed teraweh prayers.i guess this ramadhan,i've achieved something that worths even more than my o levels cert.i managed to complete all my teraweh prayers and accomplished reading the whole yaasin for the very 1st time.my gdness.never felt so happy bout myself before.o0owell,hopefully,this is just a beginning for me.very much a milestone.ramadhan has left.i do feel the loss.i truly do.ramadhan has tought me so much.to love and appreciate my loved ones even more.to be more disciplined and of cos,lose weight!!! haha. at least, i feel "lighter" now.=]
earlier in the day,ryza n I were on the way to the mosque.then, we saw this incident.a robbery case.this tanned looking guy with a white cloth concealing his identity just grabbed this old,gravitationally-challenged lady's handbag and ran.approximately,11m/s.yups.i think he was a malay.man.with my "heroic" instincts, i wanted to help but god damn it.my sidekick,ryza said its's better that we don't.this saying is very true.no crime doesn't mean no crime.
later in the evening, something funny happened.normally, we would see naked fans running around or maybe, the officials tripped after trying to backheel the ball.this is something original and fresh.have you seen a cat goes to the middle of field durin a soccer game and pooped? haha.well, this only happens in sp.the best part is all those battling,sweaty players slided and stepped on tt crap.haha.man.pity those players.they paid $40 just to play with cat's crap.haha.
no matter how fun the day is, tomorrow would definitely be better.i hope.
the recent month of ramadhan was very memorable and to be cherished.i felt like as if i've been reborn.i guess.i don't know.i felt cleaner spiritually and mentally.during that mth,i felt like as if i was going at the right path to God.hey.not only,bonds between family and friends have strengthen especially with my gd looking, son of a gun,deserved to be jitak friend,amir.haha.i spent all my ramadhan wkends with him.just working out in the gym.in the evening,performed teraweh prayers.i guess this ramadhan,i've achieved something that worths even more than my o levels cert.i managed to complete all my teraweh prayers and accomplished reading the whole yaasin for the very 1st time.my gdness.never felt so happy bout myself before.o0owell,hopefully,this is just a beginning for me.very much a milestone.ramadhan has left.i do feel the loss.i truly do.ramadhan has tought me so much.to love and appreciate my loved ones even more.to be more disciplined and of cos,lose weight!!! haha. at least, i feel "lighter" now.=]
earlier in the day,ryza n I were on the way to the mosque.then, we saw this incident.a robbery case.this tanned looking guy with a white cloth concealing his identity just grabbed this old,gravitationally-challenged lady's handbag and ran.approximately,11m/s.yups.i think he was a malay.man.with my "heroic" instincts, i wanted to help but god damn it.my sidekick,ryza said its's better that we don't.this saying is very true.no crime doesn't mean no crime.
later in the evening, something funny happened.normally, we would see naked fans running around or maybe, the officials tripped after trying to backheel the ball.this is something original and fresh.have you seen a cat goes to the middle of field durin a soccer game and pooped? haha.well, this only happens in sp.the best part is all those battling,sweaty players slided and stepped on tt crap.haha.man.pity those players.they paid $40 just to play with cat's crap.haha.
no matter how fun the day is, tomorrow would definitely be better.i hope.
Friday, September 23, 2005
demoralised
exams.very demoralizing indeed.never once in my entire education been holding by a thread.this is, i must say, a new "experience" for me.crap hole.the only module that i managed to score and to pass is A maths.and surprisely, i've never took that maths before.i mean 2 yrs of work compressing into 6 mths.definitely very exhausting.but hey.maths has always been my soul.but unfortunately, the love of my life,science,i've truly disappointed her.3 science modules.each with D grade.except for one.cppa.i tink its E.if theres such a grade in poly.hmm.simply ridiculous.im hopin to make a comeback or i must say fighting for my survival, but sadly,todays paper was just too intellectually challenging for me. for those whose suffering the same plight as me.grief.wail.cry.solemn.but of course, dont give up.it aint end of the road.o0o well.i truly pray to the Almighty that He's kind enough to at least put a smile on my face when i look at my result slip.yups.Amin.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
o0o happy day
okies.it was simply awesome .haha.went back to my old 'abode'.o0o yes..truly miss it alot.new town sec sch.school of thugs.school of crap holes and yada yada yada. haha.went back not to visit the teachers but just to catch up with my friends and of course, to enjoy the concert.haha.well, teachers day concert have never fail to amuse me.every single year, there will be a handful of idiots, will make a fool of themselves.o0o well.thats so cliche about new towners.or to be precise,the scums of the school.
met up with my juniors.indeed, they have grown up alot.i mean it.ALOT..haha..o0o well.maybe except for two..or is it 3..hmm..hey.going back to new town reminds me of those good old days.those sweaty bodies after soccer and of course, breaking.it also makes me reminsce those fond memories with my 2nd family, the prefects.o0o yes..my tourniquets.yups.still can vividly rmb those time when we were practising hard for teachers day performance and prefects camp.
those days are gone.can't retrieve them.but at least, those memories will always be at the back of head. as what i usually say. the past is what the future holds.let go of the past to make your future stronger.well, im letting it go and im moving on.
met up with my juniors.indeed, they have grown up alot.i mean it.ALOT..haha..o0o well.maybe except for two..or is it 3..hmm..hey.going back to new town reminds me of those good old days.those sweaty bodies after soccer and of course, breaking.it also makes me reminsce those fond memories with my 2nd family, the prefects.o0o yes..my tourniquets.yups.still can vividly rmb those time when we were practising hard for teachers day performance and prefects camp.
those days are gone.can't retrieve them.but at least, those memories will always be at the back of head. as what i usually say. the past is what the future holds.let go of the past to make your future stronger.well, im letting it go and im moving on.
Monday, August 29, 2005
apologies is all i got to offer
i simply dont know what in the blue hell has got into me.its like lately ive been so temperamental and evil towards my tourniquets.my gdness gracious me.hais..the worst part is whenever i get angry, i just couldn't my emotions.its like sometin' was controling me.but sometimes it feels good.
what im truly afraid right now is the past is comin back to haunt me.and o0o yes.no one knew bout my "history" except my parents n one of my classmate.its really freaking me out.o0o man..okies..for those whom i unleashed my anger on..please do forgive me.never intend to bark at you..from the bottom of heart.sincerely,im sorry..apologies is all i have to offer
what im truly afraid right now is the past is comin back to haunt me.and o0o yes.no one knew bout my "history" except my parents n one of my classmate.its really freaking me out.o0o man..okies..for those whom i unleashed my anger on..please do forgive me.never intend to bark at you..from the bottom of heart.sincerely,im sorry..apologies is all i have to offer
Monday, July 11, 2005
deteriorated dying rose
Deteriorated dying roses
Petals dropped as they dissipated in midst air
Ceasing the moment that we used to care
Erased from history. It’s no longer there
A painful memory
So painful. Such a pity
Got us shredded into pieces
It’s simply a curse
A staircase to heaven
It’s what we used to have
Everything now is so barren
Our lives, there’s nothing left
Counting the days and nights
Gritting our teeth. Fighting the cold with all our might
Nonchalantly, bravely but yet so afraid
Roses, mourning as they slowly lay down on the ground
Petals cry to be embedded
Petals dropped as they dissipated in midst air
Ceasing the moment that we used to care
Erased from history. It’s no longer there
A painful memory
So painful. Such a pity
Got us shredded into pieces
It’s simply a curse
A staircase to heaven
It’s what we used to have
Everything now is so barren
Our lives, there’s nothing left
Counting the days and nights
Gritting our teeth. Fighting the cold with all our might
Nonchalantly, bravely but yet so afraid
Roses, mourning as they slowly lay down on the ground
Petals cry to be embedded
Hoping that tomorrow will embark a new chapter
Sunday, July 10, 2005
in the end, it doesnt really matter
You and I
Used to be together
Remember how you said goodbye
Leaving me battered
Crucially, barely holding on to my life
Stabbed mercilessly by a knife
Please don’t speak
Please stop explaining
Please don’t tell me cause it hurts
So badly. Got to stop pretending
I know what you’re thinking
As evil as you can be
Putting me in misery
I just don’t know why
Cause to you, it doesn’t really matter how hard I try
Got me bruised, I don’t know how
But I guess I got it figure it now
Designing this rhyme
To explain how you put me in love poverty that time
So I guess we ain’t meant to be after all
To afraid to fall. That’s your call
Love is a valuable thing
How egoistic can you be ?
A catastrophe
That’s what you eventually will be
Just let go
I know its real
I just don’t want to know
Please do so
Love from you is slipping away
You won’t be even bothered to get it at the end of the day
Cause in the end, it doesn’t really matter
Used to be together
Remember how you said goodbye
Leaving me battered
Crucially, barely holding on to my life
Stabbed mercilessly by a knife
Please don’t speak
Please stop explaining
Please don’t tell me cause it hurts
So badly. Got to stop pretending
I know what you’re thinking
As evil as you can be
Putting me in misery
I just don’t know why
Cause to you, it doesn’t really matter how hard I try
Got me bruised, I don’t know how
But I guess I got it figure it now
Designing this rhyme
To explain how you put me in love poverty that time
So I guess we ain’t meant to be after all
To afraid to fall. That’s your call
Love is a valuable thing
How egoistic can you be ?
A catastrophe
That’s what you eventually will be
Just let go
I know its real
I just don’t want to know
Please do so
Love from you is slipping away
You won’t be even bothered to get it at the end of the day
Cause in the end, it doesn’t really matter
Thursday, June 30, 2005
sorry
sorry guys.currently too occupied with projects,assignments and reports.hais.too many things to do in a short time.man.hardly had time for family,nTo and the worst thing.i hardly had time for myself.hais.im overworked.mentally drenched.hais.o0o n btw.az congrats.hey u may not won the match but at least u made g unit proud.yea.thumbs up.
currently im working on my reports.bout viscosity test and rotameter.aiyo.i dont even know a single thing.haha.okies.i was just wondering how my classmate,desmond,can cope with the hectic schedule n yet he can commit himself to other external activities.man.gotta salute you man.i aint licking your boots but im just stating the fact.
last thursday,i bought the bsb last album,never gone.it was quite disappointing i guess.it wasnt as good as the previous albums.hais.but its ok.at least i manage to complete all the album series.o0o and btw bsb is my 1st love for music.
starbuck ! starbucks ! im craving for green tea/caramel frappucinno and caffe mocha.tall please..hehe.man.its like all a sudden,my craving for coffee has increase.danG.just great.now i have to brush my teeth twice as much as usual to prevent from staining.
okies.for those who are wondering when is my new rhyme piece coming up..soon..very soon.yups.cause im working on this piece.its called superman.aight.hehe.okies.tts all people.o0o ps..amir..haha..no prob ah..nxt time kalau naik kerete bapak aku..kau sponsor duet fuel..yups.*winks*.haha..jk jk
currently im working on my reports.bout viscosity test and rotameter.aiyo.i dont even know a single thing.haha.okies.i was just wondering how my classmate,desmond,can cope with the hectic schedule n yet he can commit himself to other external activities.man.gotta salute you man.i aint licking your boots but im just stating the fact.
last thursday,i bought the bsb last album,never gone.it was quite disappointing i guess.it wasnt as good as the previous albums.hais.but its ok.at least i manage to complete all the album series.o0o and btw bsb is my 1st love for music.
starbuck ! starbucks ! im craving for green tea/caramel frappucinno and caffe mocha.tall please..hehe.man.its like all a sudden,my craving for coffee has increase.danG.just great.now i have to brush my teeth twice as much as usual to prevent from staining.
okies.for those who are wondering when is my new rhyme piece coming up..soon..very soon.yups.cause im working on this piece.its called superman.aight.hehe.okies.tts all people.o0o ps..amir..haha..no prob ah..nxt time kalau naik kerete bapak aku..kau sponsor duet fuel..yups.*winks*.haha..jk jk
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
what a week
well last week was indeed hectic n simply dry.everything is like goin at accelerating mode.i was totally drenched.but what kept me going was the thought of her, i guess and of course my wonderful classmates and g unit.yups.hais.this week is the fourth week of school already.man.time simply flies.yups.its like a blink of an eye.the next thing you know u've completed that week.dang.well that also means im getting older.im ageing ! my brains are dying ! okies.shall not get too carried away.hmm.poly life isnt that great.too much things to learn and unfortunately my brain aint a sponge.hais.
okies.suffering from blogging blockage.cant think of what to write nxt.aight.bye bye
okies.suffering from blogging blockage.cant think of what to write nxt.aight.bye bye
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
stress
im being so stressed right now.okies.cant even think of a stanza for my new rhyme piece.its like my whole brain is occupied with calculations and sums.hais.the left hemisphere of my brain suppose to be the stronger hemisphere aint functioning properly right now.too much information stored inside.unfortunately my brain aint a cpu.it definitely need plenty of rest.hey even coms do need rest ok..man.i truly do need a break.and you know what.this is only the third week of school and im feeling so mentally drenched and exhausted.i truly do need a spa.haha.yups.i truly do.or maybe retail theraphy.yups.hais.poly life aint that wow afterall.guess been brought by false pretences.damn it.or maybe its just the stream that im ended up in.the life science stream.arrrggghhh.dear mighty Lord.hear me.im tired of this.please guide me.man.please dont make me suffer too much predicaments.i truly need a break.
being so empty has also aggravated this hectic,unpleasurable life of mine.i dont know how much more i can take.its like problems keep gushing in and im not given a chance to take a breath.im drowning i guess.it aint easy being me.a rose.a deteriorated dying rose.
being so empty has also aggravated this hectic,unpleasurable life of mine.i dont know how much more i can take.its like problems keep gushing in and im not given a chance to take a breath.im drowning i guess.it aint easy being me.a rose.a deteriorated dying rose.
Monday, June 13, 2005
well.i aint the only one
yesterdae g unit outing was a memorable one.painful but yet enjoyable.yups.that outing also taught me something.i aint the only one being mr lonely.yups.my two other brothers,zee n amir.three of us,indeed in the same boat.no doubt bout it.well,the "massive destruction" that occur to our lives has brought us together and i must say our bond has grew even stronger.we are like the unwanted residues.hais.its indeed tough being in our shoes.but what im really grateful right now is that we have each other and i wouldn't even want to trade it for the world.yups.so three cheers to g unit m'sia and may the force be with us.
Monday, June 06, 2005
a letter to padme and obi-wan
destruction,annihilation
cruelty,blood of younglings covered my hands
begging for mercy
ruthless ive become,slaughtered them with no pity
never have i thought could be this powerful
fighting like a wounded,raging bull
jedi council,once i regard as a family
u treated me like a fool
padme
come with me
cant you see,how we could rule the galaxy
fear has definitely bring out the beast in me
dark side is simply so over empowering
never assume this as a path to catastrophe
i promise you,i wont let you die in misery
my pain,my sufferings,i will let them feel
to prove to them that im for real
feel so betrayed,i have
its just you and the kids are what i have left
im trying to prevent you from death
my once called brother,obi-wan
why would you turn your back on me
why you keep holding me back from being the choosen one
you shall pay for what you have done
never underestimate my power
cause i will always be your fear
the only darth vader
finally over,the saga,it is
well fans.its been quite awhile i never update my blog.was actually taking a break from the com and i was trying to settle down with my poly thing.man its definitely hard to settle down in a new campus,new environment and things like that.well okies.enough bout my poly life.lets get on to main picture.it was loss,nostalgia and the pain that i was experiencing.it was hard to believe,the saga of star wars and its intergalatic adventures revealed over a very large part of my life-17 years 6 mths n 5 days to be exact.With the last episode,revenge of the sith being over,a very large chapter of my life has come to an end.cutting across the nation,the tale of a dessert boy.luke skywalker,who became a jedi and took on evil,which is his own dad,is also more than just a classic parable of good and evil.i mean who would have thought of battle of father and son or maybe the homo relationship between two robots.well i was refering to c3po n R2D2.These 3 stars wars prequel( the phantom menace,attack of the clones n revenge of the sith ) tell the story of how anakin started out as a jedi knight only to become dart vader,the reincarnation of evil.Although it was not anything we do not know,i just had to witness the tragedy of Anakin betraying his Jedi training and crossing to the dark side.When it came to the end,the revenge of the sith was indeed heart breaking.the pain was simply unbearable.i just can't bear to hold my tears.i definitely felt the huge lump in my throat.sobs.i definitely not good at farewells,but i manage to say my final goodbye to my part of my life which began in a galaxy far,far away..may the force be with you
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
6-2
yesterdae was simply fantastic.nTo trashed ntu 6-2 in soccer friendlies.wooo.we were like bunch of 18 yr olds.except for me.i guess.o wait..theres me zee n that kundik,saravanan.the babies of nto.n our opponents looked like as if they have reached their prime.but surprisinly,they were only 23.yups.danG.simply awesome..got the chance to play almost the whole game.but damn it..i got my groin strain in the 70th min.i was like struggling chasing after the left winger.damn fast sia.but thankfully,due my "well-buit" body n my "exquisite" skill,i manage to pull off a few important tackles n headers.feel kinda proud of myself that day.i don't why i played that enthusiasticly yesterday.maybe because arsenal won the fa cup after a fierce battle.or maybe i just vent all my sadness during that match.i don't know.haiz.
danG..nxt wk school starts.danG after 7 long months of break.actually gonna treasure the last wk of my holix.n when school starts.gdbye history.hello future.alot of things happened during this 7 mths.alot of good things n bad things that happened.well of course,shall cherish every single one of them.the good memories reminds me of the great times.and bad memories actually make me stronger and wiser.yups.at least im more prepared for the future.the past is what the future holds.i should build on my past to make my future stronger.well,in order to make my future stronger,i shall let go of my past.saya ikhlas(i'm sincere)
danG..nxt wk school starts.danG after 7 long months of break.actually gonna treasure the last wk of my holix.n when school starts.gdbye history.hello future.alot of things happened during this 7 mths.alot of good things n bad things that happened.well of course,shall cherish every single one of them.the good memories reminds me of the great times.and bad memories actually make me stronger and wiser.yups.at least im more prepared for the future.the past is what the future holds.i should build on my past to make my future stronger.well,in order to make my future stronger,i shall let go of my past.saya ikhlas(i'm sincere)
Friday, May 20, 2005
if i die tonight/i taught you knew
seems like just yesterday
you were part of me
stood up so strong
wrap my loving arms around you so tight
it just feel so right
but now,feeling so empty
for the first time,feeling so ashamed of my life
barely hanging on to the broken pieces
-
a beautiful thing to many eyes
hazel eyes,im telling no lies
because of you,im so afraid
but i cant cry
i force myself to laugh everyday in my life
fake a smile
but whats behind the curtain
fire running wild
pray youre happy now
you got what you deserved
to think you're with another guy
it pains me so much inside
the loneliness of living alone
knowing i cant be saved
mistakes need to be atone
-
but if i die tonight
would you be there right beside
or ignorance's a bliss.if u think its right
if i die tonight
would i be able to see your smile once again
to at least cease my pain
if i die tonight
would i be forgiven
for the "cruelty" ive done to you
please forgive me,boo
if i die tonight
don't know what will happen to you,van
don't know how long would it take for you to belong to another man
God damn
but if i die tonight
i just want to tell you my world revolves around you
i just love you
i really taught you knew
Thursday, May 12, 2005
self reflection
well i did a self reflection todae after doin 3 hrs of a maths..well i completed 3 online tests.hurray..ace them..haha.3 cheers..hip hip huray..haiz..kk..i was like thinking u noe after she left.everything seems so blur.so unclear.its like as if i can't do things right.her absence in my life is like a jinx.i dont know when this "curse" gonna end.she left me.rays of probs seems to emerge.u see my fam probs start to mutate.eversince my dad bought a car.everyone starts being so nice to my family n stuff.trying to take advantage.my dad tried selling his old "harley davidson"..wad de hell..its in gd condition.my neighbour wants it for $500.what the hell.my dad maintain the bike like mad.its in tip top condition yet he wants it for $500.go get some scrap pieces n make ur own becak la...haha..okies.then my neighbours are being so damn nosey.i dont know why buying a car can create such an impact.its not like as if my dad strike a lottery.fuck this shit man.well pardon the curses but i just haf to get it off my chest.cant stand human.now my neighbours tryin to be nice to my dad so that every mornin,he could send their kids to school.who do they think my dad is..their chaffeur..u want a car..go get one.dont try to step on my dad's head.i swear whoever tries to do that to any of my loved ones, i swear i "hunt" that person down.now im targetting my bro in law.simply hate him.he broke my fam's trust.now hes getting back with my sis so that he could extract all her money.one day.im sure enough to make him suffer.theres a saying.revenge is a dish best served cold.hais.i dont know.she left me leavin me so weak to move on in life.kinda sad la me.haha.kk..wadver it is..todaes the 3rd wk me being so..hmm..vulnerable.so fragile.so "brittle"..anything tts associate with weak..thats the condition im in right now.okies.if ure readin this,please open your heart once again..please dont jeapordised me..please..=(
Sunday, May 08, 2005
o0o fries..lovely lovely fries...where art thou
haiz..today as usual..me will do nothing much..danG..this school holix is abit too long for me ah..i just cant stand sitting at home spending my precious time doing almost nothing..n oso the weather this days has definitely been fluctuating..its kinda bad for me..worst still,my skin is quite sensitive..now my back is like layered with zits.....yucks..simply yucks eh..damn...been drinking lots of water n this crappy herbal drink thingy...i really hope it would neutralize my body yin and yan...wadever its is,i just want my previous bouncy,supple bouncy skin back..oookies..enuff of that..hmm..today i just did whatever my mum ask me to do..yup..i mean since its school holix..might as well make myself useful..just help her buy things n stuff..prepare my own dinner..dont really want to like u know...tire her..okies..well other than helpin my mum..i did a maths..hell yea..2 1/2 hrs of pure a maths..yup..just me staring at the com den do all the sums..kinda ok i gess...i alwaes taught a maths is damn tough..but actually not really..hmm...yup..its just tt i just haf to look into the matter longer compared to e maths..n also,i must "visualise"..haha..still rmb that phrase..tts what mdm chang alwaes said to my class whenever we do maths..hmm..o0oya..my dad bought me fillet o fish meal for lunch..danG..damn it..theres fries in it..when i eat it..i just stared at it while holdin it..it reminds me of me eatin fries wit HER inside the crew room..haha...i can still rmb only me n her inside the rm alone together eatin fries...then suddenly ming feng came in...haha...must be damn ouch for him..haiz..those fond memories..sobx..it simply hurts la..if i cant one wish right now..i would like to have my past 5 months back..i just want it back..sobs..=(
Saturday, May 07, 2005
TIRED...word of the day
dang..i feel soo eeeehhhhkk(lil john)..haha..today was so damn tiring..i started off the day by going to the mosque to perform my friday prayers..man..it was raining heavily..hmm..blessing from God,i suppose..i mean the weather has been so damn bad lately..fuu..padang masyar dok..haha..even stay at home oso still can sweat like mad...hmmm..worst..wit my fan blastin..still hot sia...hais..o0oya..back to todaes outin..hmm..o0oya..when i reach darusallam mosque..haha...tak ya mandi..haha...soaked..drenched..abit redundant ah..ookies..hmm..after prayers..damn it.left the mosque..forgot to take back my umbrella..not just an ordinari umbrella...giodarna umbrella eh...haiz...nampak sah nanti kene cope la..haha..okies..after that.me n g unit plus long john..the co member member of the gang..went to al ah meen to have our lunch..yuck was the best word to describe my meal..haha...wad de..totally regretted orderin nasi merah..daging merah..haha...i haf to force down my $3.50 meal eh..haiz..damn sad eh..okies...after our meal...hmm...we head down to qnsway shoppin centre at 4pm..me actualli planning to get myself a pair of shoes...but shit sia..the presto shoe that i want..haiz...unfortunately no size for me..then..no bucks got himself a nike football shirt...okies....den yada yada yada...walk aroun the smelly s.centre..den not many eye candy i must say..haha...but me n 50rm spot this hot mama...but i find her abit clumsy ah...haha..i was eatin my 2 chicken paus n 50 was comparin the paus with the ladies "paus'..i was like..hmm...no eh...more like...hmm...watermelon..haha..kk...enuf rob banks...*slaps slaps*..haha...hey..50..i told u my milkshake was nice..u noe when i drank that....haha..reminds me of the song 'milkshake'..by kellis....haha.enough crapping...haiz..on the way home..o0oya...sat wit meen..then talk bout stuffs..u noe im sayin.haha..okies...o0oya..last nite i had a dream bout her..haiz..man she was with her gd fren,su mei..haiz..i dreamt i patched up with her..haiz..out of so many places..y must it be inside the bus..haha..n o0oya...her friend..was woooa..kinda hot in my dream..haha..ookies..serious business here..hmm...yea..i donoe whether that day will really come..haiz..all i want frm good Lord are just guidance,strength,revelations and lastly,love..yups..i aint asking much..yups..thats all i want from You...hais..well..for now i just have to wait...
Friday, May 06, 2005
bleeding
well early this mornin,i wrote a rhyme for u guys to see.yup.took me hmmm...20 min to complete the whole thingy..hmm.haiz..definitely straight from my heart..i felt the pinch when i wrote my latest piece.hais..i badly,truly miss her.u know just now..in the toilet, i actually got a huge cut on my middle finger.cause i wasn't aware of what i was doing.i just kept thinking of her.i donoe how my middle finger hit the edge of my toilet "shelf"..haha...my dad created one for the toilet..dang it hurts..okies..den i tried the most stupid thing ever..i took lots of salt n apply it on my wound..haha...woo...fuuu...u should know whats my reaction..haha...but then again,i think to myself again..this physical pain aint nothing compared to what im feeling inside..yup..what makes the internal pain even more excrutiating is that people cant even see it..maybe because my "acting" skill is simply too "marvellous"..haha..only my gd frens can actualli sense the pain im going through..did you know our eyes are actually window to our feelings? yup.danG..hais..if only i could prove to her and her parents that what i have for her is sincere.but hey..patience is virtue that i really need to possess now.just wait for the time to ripe..strike while the iron is still hot..but then again..i must always remember..i decide what to do...i plan what to do...but only God gives the final decision.yup.hmm.its indeed a risk that im taking.okies.shall not brag on this matter for today before you guys get bored.so i just end here ya..aight..tell u guys more about the tales of hidayat tml ya...insyaAllah(with God's will)...=] [enjoy the rhyme that i wrote for u guys]
Thursday, May 05, 2005
another dae..another mile
man..i just got to know tt my life is just like an education institute.haha.i just haf learn lots of prob n of cause,learn to solve them.yup.its kinda suck i gess.okies.firstly..i dono y my parents' fam like to sever ties with my fam.its not like as if we did any wrong to them.every move tt my fam made..they will somehow track us down..they seem to stick their eyes on us.o0oya.about their mouth..simply cant shut.the main topic they will talk bout is my fam.wads up wit tt man..okies..just now...my mum told me bout my dad's history..its kinda sad ah..u noe..when he was young..he alwaes been beaten up by his mum..she kinda reminds me of the klumps..haha..ookies..he alwaes haf to take the blame.eventhough he was not in the wrong.its kinda sad huh....he belongs to a rich fam..but sadly money cant realli buy love..it prolongs until now..my grandma..yes..unfortunately still kicking..still hates him..haiz...she will go round n bad mouth my dad..i realli pity him..no wonder he alwaes shower his kids wit lots of love n money..hehe..ookies..enuff wit tt..n o0oya...my parent's marriage.my grandma didn't reali gave her blessings..she tried her v best just to break up my mum n my dad while i was still in my mummy's womb..man..shes damn evil...my mum told me she once had a dream bout her..my grandma was like chokin..graspin for air in hell..my gdness..kinda freaky..hmmm...my dad's siblings had nv been in gd relations wit my dad..it applies to my mum's side too.until now..i dont even noe some of uncles n aunts..wel..i don wish to noe after listenin to all this stories.im kinda impressed by my parents..u see...ppl tried their very best to destroy their marriage but they still hold on to each other..hmm..its v much like a fairytale...but a less beautiful endin..hais..enuff of their probs..i still got my sis probs..man...i still got mine.my fam probs will never seem to end..sometimes,i just wish my fam is totalli not related to this idiots.how i wish that could happen..its such a disgrace to regard those animals as my flesh and blood..well almost..simply repulsive..haiz..but for now..i just haf to pray to Him so that all this could just end..hais..okies...enuff of all the pain in the ass..todae..theres a new addition to my fam..haha..the hyundai matrix..rock on.haha...tt also means i don haf 2 travel to school takin the bus..oryt..haha..tight man..but dang...my dad still don want to sell his 'harley davidson'..my mum saes he might be reservin it for me..hmmm..haha...cant realli imagine myself riding a huge two wheels monster.haha..can u imagine me wearin the helmet...den wit my retro ray ban shades..haha...fuuu..but dont want ah..riding motorcycle definitely not my cup of tea..i prefer cars u noe..haha...but for now..i just stick to studies rather than driftin myself to those dreams..hmm..talkin bout dreams..liverpool did the impossible out of nothing eh..haha..i wasnt referin to they qualifyin themselves to the final...but they manage to score a goal within 4 min..haha...my gdness..liverpool eh...shitty team...can score tt early against chelsea..haha..my gdness..whats ronk wit chelseas defense..maybe because john terry sufferin frm ego inflation until he didnt defend properly..haha..maybe..but chelsea's lost taught me sometin..giants can be beaten by 'miggets'..haha...this is indeed a great example..ookies..maybe i talk to much todae..to dear readers..if you dont know what to do after readin this..move the cursor n click the [x] button at the top right hand corner..aight....gdbye...
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
wad a dae
haiz..man..todae i gess is kinda exhaustin..woke up aroun 3 am just to watch arsenal's match..haha..wooo...2-0 baby...man..they reali kick west bromich ass..its rili gd to see arsenal back to their usual form..hmm...the winning daes..yup..okies..after the match..well did my mornin prayers n yea...as usual..go back to slp..zZz..yup..woke up i tink 12 30..haha...nv bathe or anytink..me quickly switched on the com n start wit my a maths revision..haha..toking bout a amaths..its a bit like emaths but its more..abstract la..haha..but overall kinda okla.yup..den end at bout 3 45..hmm..roun 430...me head down to the gym..buff up my 'buffed up' body..haha...o0oya..i saw leonard tan too at de gym..todaes workout was kinda tirin ah..coz i rili push myself to the max..my tighs were slightly tense n my "big,bulging biseps"..for short triple b..hehe..my gdness..were kinda strain..as i was so mother lovin tired..okies...stop...balek ah....hmm...roun 7..den chicken mc nugget...rainin sei...haha..wad de..haiz..but u see..evendoe my life looks normal...but deep down inside me..man..ouch..bleedin slowly..missin her badly..hais..its realli painful to see ur loved ones been taken away frm you by forced..but well...i just haf to respect her parents decision..they are doin whats best for her...n yea...but if shes happy this way.den i gess i haf 2 be happy ryt...hmmm..so watever it is..i just pray to God..so watever He has in store for me...i shall accept them wit arms wide open....=]
alo alo ppl
hey guys..this is..i gess my new blog..haha..the open diary is long tym history baby..so before i start throwin out my craps..just wanna tell u...im hidayat..the one n onli.yup.hehe...okies..i would consider myself as mr lonely.hais..u noe ppl..sometimes the past is wad de future holds..must let go of ur past to make ur future stronger..but its seems tt lettin go of my past seem to be so damn excrutiating.its easy for ppl to sae..o0o common...shes just a gerl..there r so many fishes in the sea..i donoe bout tt..i mean c'mon..i aint gd lookin...i aint charmin...i aint gerls dream boat man....im not like my oder g unit members like 50rm n no bucks...they r definitely up for grabs...yupx..gd looks..simply smooth wit the gerls...just look at me.i aint nobody, ppl..sometimes i just wish God would gif me suave looks n stuff..but hey..den i tink to myself...God is fair..there is beauty in me...but its just tt it takes tym to dig for it..hmm...o0oya..back to HER..yes..wad we haf..or i must sae used 2 haf was indeed special..i nv felt so special..i nv felt so much love before..she love me for whom i am n not for what i am...i appreciate tt...i truly do..i mean c'mon...deres alot of gd lookers hum she rejected n instead,she picked up diz dirty,old rag...haha....haiz....but evi tink seems 2 like ended up in a catastrophe..but wadever it is..i just remain optimistic..i must trust God's plan..i shalln't cry because its over.but instead..smile because it realli happen to me..=)
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