self reflection

well i did a self reflection todae after doin 3 hrs of a maths..well i completed 3 online tests.hurray..ace them..haha.3 cheers..hip hip huray..haiz..kk..i was like thinking u noe after she left.everything seems so blur.so unclear.its like as if i can't do things right.her absence in my life is like a jinx.i dont know when this "curse" gonna end.she left me.rays of probs seems to emerge.u see my fam probs start to mutate.eversince my dad bought a car.everyone starts being so nice to my family n stuff.trying to take advantage.my dad tried selling his old "harley davidson"..wad de hell..its in gd condition.my neighbour wants it for $500.what the hell.my dad maintain the bike like mad.its in tip top condition yet he wants it for $500.go get some scrap pieces n make ur own becak la...haha..okies.then my neighbours are being so damn nosey.i dont know why buying a car can create such an impact.its not like as if my dad strike a lottery.fuck this shit man.well pardon the curses but i just haf to get it off my chest.cant stand human.now my neighbours tryin to be nice to my dad so that every mornin,he could send their kids to school.who do they think my dad is..their chaffeur..u want a car..go get one.dont try to step on my dad's head.i swear whoever tries to do that to any of my loved ones, i swear i "hunt" that person down.now im targetting my bro in law.simply hate him.he broke my fam's trust.now hes getting back with my sis so that he could extract all her money.one day.im sure enough to make him suffer.theres a saying.revenge is a dish best served cold.hais.i dont know.she left me leavin me so weak to move on in life.kinda sad la me.haha.kk..wadver it is..todaes the 3rd wk me being so..hmm..vulnerable.so fragile.so "brittle"..anything tts associate with weak..thats the condition im in right now.okies.if ure readin this,please open your heart once again..please dont jeapordised me..please..=(