Trust

Trust


What a word.

It has become this random thing.

Like everything else nowadays,

the word is so misunderstood and abused

till it loses it's worth.

Trust defines entrusting someone with a little piece of yourself,

and when someone gets in that "circle of trust"

they are also in a position to hurt you.

They can expose you and just rip you apart.

Trust is so difficult to gain but much more easily lost.

A breach of trust is so difficult to forgive because trust is so vital and

we humans are deeply dependant on it.

It boils down to a pure essence,

one that smells nothing like a rat.

So,

why would you be so dumb to just throw away your trust where

their betrayal can cause serious annihilation to yourself ?

Don't worry.

I've been there.

Just something to ponder about

=]

Such phony masquerade of virtue.
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i swear to God

my neighbour was moaning erotically in her bathroom

while i was in the toilet clearing my bowels.

I guess she must be having the time of her life.

*wagbrow*

Attraction : skill or plain luck ?

Attraction : Skill or plain Luck ?


Attraction,

such a mouth-watering topic.

The word alone reminds me of sensual indulgence and forbidden delights.

*yum*

Bu why is it that some gorgeous looking men have difficulties getting hitch with beautiful women

and why

and i mean WHY

does some so so-looking (or WORST) men seem to get it ON easily ?

The answers are connection (not konek-tion..yes you james..bloody hell..don't think dirty..im clean..nyehehehehehe)

and seduction,

dear readers.

Unfortunately,

most men don't realize the importance of chemistry and seduction.

Some men still think that their good looks alone are sufficient to attract a woman.

Bullshit ! (nak act cikgu kathijah..haha)

Initially,

i had the same perception too.

But sorry my friends,

good looks can only take you so far.

I do not know what are these "lucky bastards" secrets

but i think these should be the partial key ingredients for attraction.

1) The ever-lasting charm

2) Probably intellectual magnetism

I guess the mind is a powerful tool.

Utilise it well.

=]

3) Chivalry

Don't worry.

These kinda men are pretty much living in this puny planet.

You just need to open your eyes bigger, girls

4) He makes her feel beautiful

A man who's not afraid to let his woman know that he thinks she's beautiful.

It may not be true but like i've said in the previous post, lie if you have to..haha.

To fulfill one of her biggest needs,

that will only land him big points.

=]

I seriously don't know what are their real secrets

but i'm willing to travel the longest of distance to learn the art of seduction.

hahaha..

yeea..like real

peace

ps : if you guys are wondering how in the blue hell i came up with such a topic,

let's just say i was in a contemptuous conversation with amir and zee

about.....

go figure

*whistling*

Lying can save your ass

Lying can save your ass (well..at times)


My mother raised me the way every well-mannered boy should be.

(you faggots don't laugh..i am, ok..well, sort of)

She taught me the important lessons of life,

and the proper ways to behave.

The most important lesson that she always try to get across was

I should tell the truth at all costs.

haha..tell me about it

I could still very much remember her words

"If you lie, your nose will grow long and my tongue will be chopped off"

Being naive as i was,

I believed every word she said and took her advice to heart.

Big mistake.

But now come to think of it,

my mother was lying through her teeth when she told me the consequences of lying.

Can you believe the irony?

haha

A decade later,

i put her advice to a test on my very first ever relationship.

haha

let's just say i'm very experimental (what do you expect..im a science student)

Ex : Do you love me ?

My definitely NO-NO answer : ummm..i guess so. It depends

Indeed,

that was the last time i last spoken to her and i almost got bitch-slapped.

haha

See where truth lands me.

Maybe,

i should have just look straight into her eyes

and say (even i don't even mean it),

"Yes ! I feel that I am truly falling for you and you're my one and only."

o0oman..

My advice : Practice in front of the mirror first if you feel you might choke up at the thought of such words.

hahaha

So moral of the story,

You must know when to lie

and most importantly,

do it convincingly.

=]

peace

ps : jangan cakap ni aku bilang korang eh

My Sanity

My Sanity


Every few days later,

I forget a little more,

I'll sing to a different tune,

heart becomes less wound up.

I felt something sweet this morning

as I ran through everything again.

A walk down memory lane is always bittersweet

ain't it?

I do it frequently till

it has become part of my life.

A demeanour socketed so deep,

I might have to give up life itself.

Yet,

to have these memories are such a blessing.

I always ponder over all,

what I kept,

what I missed,

what I left,

what I hope for.

Its a long list,

but I go over it everyday.

My sanity.

To find comfort in serenity is obsolete
but to find serenity in calamity is comfort

~ Y A T

The Unique Way of Life

The Unique Way of Life


Many of us tried making the best of life.

Yet,

this doesn't seem to accomplish our satisfaction.

There are times when we feel an urge to experience life in more depth.

We may want to express ourselves in more intimate and creative ways.

We sometimes have this strong desire to break out of fixed and limited boundary.

Tell me about it..

There are times when we encounter failures and

experience dissatisfactions with ourselves which we want to change.

We have learned that our potential is limitless.

But in reality,

we have subconsciously set definite limits confining our lives.

We all fantasize about having great accomplishments (not fantasizing about playmates eh)

but deep down inside, we know they are just wishful thinking.

*ouch*

So they just remain unfulfilled.

As we all like to achieve our objectives,

the moment of achievement is very brief.

We live our lives,

learn our lessons and

achieve our growth in the process of getting there.

I guess there is much truth in this adage,

"It's not whether you win or lose, but how you play the game that matters"

Even the longest journey begins with a single step

English Himbo

English Bitch


My Ing-gerl-leesh (english: inspired by james) has always been PHENOMENAL

yea...PHENOMENALLY BAD

even till now.

I read through all my pri 4 english tutorials and indeed,

i had a good laugh.

enjoy

Primary 4 English Proverbs Exercise

1) Strike While The... Coakroach is near

2) You Can't Teach An Old Dog New... Language

3) The Pen Is Mightier Than The... Colour Pencils !!! (yes..the exclamation marks were written)

4) Better Be Safe Than... Running away

5) Children Should Be Seen And Not...Caned

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As the saying goes " curiousity kills the cat"

but curiousity has got my nephew terrified.

haha

He asked me what happens after we die.

I told him we get buried under a bunch of dirt and worms feed on our bodies.

I guess I should have told him the truth

that most of us go to Hell and burn eternally

but I didn't want to upset him even more.

peace

=]

rejection is better than regret

Rejection is better than Regret


I seriously don't know what i was in my previous life

but i got this strong feeling i was a counsellor for the broken hearts (for males)

damn it.

Friend : eh yat..i cannot take it anymore ah

ME : why ?

Friend : my girlfriend broke up with me on valentine's day ah

Me : Ouch man..ouch..then ?

Friend : She left me for another guy ah..nabei

and he started crying 'cats and dogs' if there is such a thing.

He sounded more like a dog though..hahaha

And slowly, he had his head lying on my shoulders.

eeeeeeekk

It felt as though the Greek God just lost his virginity to William Hung.

I could never be any more embarassed than that.

We were in public (no PDA pleaseeeee) and of course,

man..talk about the inevitable public stares.

Afterall he's a friend

and you can't expect me to be like "oi oi..get off me, you 85kg chunk of meat !"

Did i mention he was bigger, chiselled and better looking than me ?

In a way,

yea..i do feel honoured that someone would actually want to confide in me.

It makes me feel like hey..even homies do need some sugar-coating when it comes to the matters of the heart.

But the other side of me..what are you doing, Mutha Fucka..you're crazy, man?

hahaha

Seriously,

breaking up is no easy task,

especially when it involves losing someone you care about.

Most of us have sever a relationship by simply falling off the face of the planet.

Being definitive with your decision is crucial during the transition.

It's pretty simple to get into the "loveboat"

but unfortunately,

not many of us have mastered sustaining longevity (and i mean no any other affairs)

and most importantly,

the art of breaking up.

There is no easy way to call it quits.

Breaking up "cleanly" with the least amount of resentment and agitation is the main objective.

So,

for those chicks or guys who wish to dump the hell out of your partner and ready to call it off,

but struggle with the concept of approach,

think carefully first.

Think of those fond memories you both had together (minus the kinky ones)

and compare those with the nasty ones.

Which is heavier ? Do you need a weighing machine for that ?

But then again,

sometimes,

REJECTION IS BETTER THAN REGRET.

You don't want to spend the rest of your days reminiscing about what could have been.

This will allow for sore heartaches,

sore eyes (think must be too much of those adult movies)

and wet pants (you get what i mean *winks*)

peace

ps: sorry guys..can't be of much help..even my heart needs plastering

Winning the hearts of your precious ones

Winning the hearts of my precious ones


This blogger is a writer who has excess energy to burn.

Your job is simple:

You read,

You laugh,

You might get angry (hopefully not)

and most importantly,

You contemplate.

You can start by a simple enquiry.

Move your cursor up and down and

we can most likely work something out from there.

Promise.

=]

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It's funny how kids just repulse "fancy" food

and choose the simplest of food : finger food.

From fish fingers

to nuggets

to even bull's penis (i dont know if they would consider it as finger food..haha)

So, i decided to win the hearts of my favourite little tyrants by

trying a recipe which i kinda made up myself.

Jempot-jempot Tahu (Tofu Fritters)

Ingredients

1) 4 beancurds and 1 egg tofu (egg tofu to provide that soft smooth texture)

2) 10 prawns (skin peeled and saute them lightly)

3) 2 eggs (to act as binder)

4) 1 1/2 cups of flour (sieve first)

5) 2 tablespoon of self-raisng flour

6) spring onions and chinese parsley (chop them into fine pieces)

7) salt, pepper and abit of japanese chilli powder

Steps

Just mix and mesh them together.

make into small balls and fry them.

Preferably, serve them with thai sweet sauce.

Yummy.

I supposed they were so good that they disappeared each time i picked them up from the wok.

I finally got my two satisfied customers

Muhammad Shamel Fahmy bin Muhammad Syariff

Naili Kaheesha binte Mohammad Yazid Shane Valentino Carvel Abdullah

I guess mission ain't that impossible,

afterall

=]

Marriage

Marriage : The toughest game to play (excluding FM 2008)


Watched how Burke just walked away from the wedding

and leaving Yang in the the most undesirable emotional solitary confinement.

Burke...now you're the MAN !!

what ??..

c'mon..it's just Grey's Anatomy

i know some of you fans will be like, "fuck you, Y A T"

haha..in fact,

i've already got that from rach.

haha..Damn it.

But at that some point in our lives,

we want to quit "the game" and settle down with that significant other.

Marriage is a word that we all dread until suddenly,

one day,

POOOOOFFFF.... !!!!

it all makes sense and

you pop the big question.

The big day (your wedding) is probably one of the most stressful events you will have to go through.

And quite understandably, there may be a voice in the back of your mind asking,

”What the blue fuck am I doing?”

About half of all marriages end in divorce,

so it's sensible to double-check that your very last pickup is the perfect partner for you.

Rach and i kinda discussed what signs a man should look out for before he embarked himself in the biggest "GAME" of his life or he might just end up "token-less".

1) She complains about the ring..the bling

Now FUCK that..

seriously, she should just carve out a ring out of the bamboo pole.

The wedding ring symbolizes the two of you bonded together for the rest of your lives.

It's placed on the ring finger of our left hand as it symbolises “love vein” that runs straight to your heart.

awwww...*shedding tears*

So if she still complains,

take note.

A marriage is a statement of love and so much more than mere jewelry.

The fact that you're giving her the wedding ring should be ample.

If she still whines,

like how MATS like to say..

"Lu relac one corner, suaaa.."

haha

2) She's totally against the idea of having a bachelor's party

o0o0o c'mon

you're kidding me?

Flowers? Wedding Cards? DJs?

These wedding Main points probably aren't the things you're looking forward to the most.

C'mon guys..admit it..especially you James

yes you James

kk..i swear i won't paoto your wife *smiles*

haha

This last hoorah is your bid farewell to singlehood with your group of tight homies.

She has spent years dreaming about the wedding and

you have spent years dreaming about your bachelor party (standard laa..)

Once again..*looking at James*

No bachelor party = No marriage

Like i've said in the past

have faith in your partner

=]

Feelings

Feelings


Its funny how doing nothing important would yield feelings so important.

1) The Fear

overwhelming & sneaky,

it makes limbs immobile.

The heart gradually quakes uncontrollably because of the uncertainty.

The adrenaline races in the veins,

a chemical rush.

The mind process instinctively,

curling up to protect one-self.

2) The Sorrow

tormenting & horrid.

It drowns & makes one sink slowly inside himself.

A mixture of the finest pain & decomposing will. o0o0oyess

It will hang on one's back of the mind.

Unhealthy enslavement to sorrow will only result in the inevitable.

Indeed.
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These "shards of cutting" ,

tiny but oh so pleasurable.

Man..

i feel like a saddistic bitch right now

Rejection

Rejection


A friend of mine got seriously rejected by a chick lately and trust me,

he didn't take it too well.

Rejection is really important after I realized how to quantify a female bridging situation.

Initially,

the first few times when you have been rejected,

you really are like a dog.

Tail between your legs, heart pounding with fear, shaky hands maybe.

By and by

when you have done enough to quantify the situation,

you will become analytical.

What exactly did you do wrong,

how exactly were you supposed to act?

Of course I'm way not qualified to discuss about this issue.

I'm just here to say,

if you want it that bad, keep doing it.

You wanna thicken your skin?

You're going to be insulted, rejected and worst of all,

suffer SCORN.

After you get over it and quantify it, its just leaps and bounds.

Its about controlling your emotions and

controlling your confidence level that leads to success.

Be an actor and lie.

=)

ps: korang jangan pandai-pandai cakap ni aku bilang eh..haha

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I could vividly remember a "conversation" i had with a mat in the mrt

The Reason : i smiled BACK at his chinese nurse girlfriend

take note of the KEY WORD : BACK

so this was how the conversation went

MAT : oi..you got a prob with my girlfriend ?

Me : ummm..not at all..asal ?

MAT : kau budak melayu eh? sial kau..pukimak..betol-betol tak puas hati ape ?

Me : umm..as far as i'm concerned..my mum's vagina is at home and yes..it is sleeping peacefully..so nopes..dier puas hati

MAT : kau jangan nak berbual konek ngan aku. kite stop pat next stop and fight ah kalau berani

Me : pick someone of your own size (he was short and kinda small size for a guy) and pea brain *smiles*

With a conversation like that,

IT (mat) just makes my nephew and niece super intellectual.

haha

peace

Y A T ' s try outs

Y A T ' s Try-Outs

honestly speaking

if it's not for the love of science,

i would probably end up doing culinary programmes rather than osmosing human waste to fuel.

But whatever it is,

there's still a part of me that burns for cooking.

Not very much of a good cook but

one of my cooking principles :

Take your time to make your food look good because that will be your half eating experience.

Right, ryza ?

But of course, i've not been doing that lately at home..haha

So now,

i would like take the opportunity to share with you Y A T ' s cooking try-outs

*gulps*

Crab salad (appetizer)

or you can call it CRAP salad

1) most important ingredient : crab meat or instant crab meat (digging out crab meat can be one hell of a task)

2) lime

3) green apple : cut into fine slices

4) extra virgin olive oil : just a teaspoon will do

5) japanese chilli pepper

6) dash of tabasco sauce

7) salt and pepper for that extra punch

Combine all the ingredients in a bowl excluding the chilli pepper and tabasco.

Mix them homogeneously (chey chey..act Basic Instrumental Analysis).

Place the mix on a plate and sprinkle the chilli pepper on top.

A dash of tabasco sauce to be added; provided extra spicyness is desired.

Voala !

Bon appeTIT, everyone

ps : The small-ish portion should never be placed on a terribly white sparse plate

like i've said, people, PRESENTATION counts

but taste more important lah, of course !

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What is it about love that makes us so stupid ?

i guess i'll never know

Kobe Beef

Kobe beef

"mmmmm..mmmmmm"



Probably the most heavenly thing that i've put inside my mouth

Kobe beef has an exceedingly melting and delicate texture.

The steak just bursts with a rich, buttery onset,

followed by a hearty, meaty finish that lingers gently on the palate.

This piece of beef has indeed made me a food snob.

It is buttery and rich and

melts in your mouth that I thought it was eating butter.

Seriously.

Maybe they should consider using kobe beef as biofuel when we run out of oil.

haha

It was so rich that I thought I was going to be sick from it (abit jelak and muak),

but nonetheless,

it was FAB.

Only thing is,

it is very very expensive *keerrrr-chiiinnnngggg*

When i say it's very expensive,

do be prepared to fork out platinum from your pocket.

So I think that is going to be my once in a life experience eating

a holy,

golden cow.

MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!

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haha

i wonder if these kids taste like kobe beef

hmmmm

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Just in case no one has smiled at you today...

Autopsy

k

i swear to God

i felt like puking watching this video

hahaha

so

enjoy

=]



sweet dreams

vday

"Happy Valentine's Day"

In most of the world,

these would be innocuous good wishes

but not in the islamic countries.

Islam has edictally indicated that

there are only two holidays in Islam

Eid al-Fitri and Eid al-Adha.

Any other holidays are inventions which Muslims are banned from.

Those whom celebrate will be severely punished.

Valentine's Day is a light-hearted matter

but efforts to repress it symbolize an intent to make war on modernity.

In this way,

the cultural struggle over heart-shaped cards points to a battle now underway for the soul of Islam.

Can Islam suppress what has come to be known as "Lover's Day"?

Or

can it keep this holiday within acceptable bounds?

Much hangs in the balance.

But whatever it is,

i'm out of love

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Tudong + pouting = Fab

CNY 08

"Wo Yao Ang Bao Hen Da Hen Hao"

bloody hell

speaking mandarin to chinese relatives = that's it..gone case

=]

playing monopoly with family = FUN

losing in monopoly to two 4 year old kids = SUPER DEGRADING

hahahahahhaa

o0owell

this is what i deserve for getting two little tyrants


these two rascals of mine

let me warn you

they are super saddistic

they get super hyper when they see violence in cartoons

and i'm not talking about ordinary cartoons



freaky

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as i was on my way back from my 6 km run

i came across this malay couple across the neighbourhood

due to my super sensitive selective hearing

i managed to listen to their conversation

Boy : Yang..i lup you la

translation : darling..i love you

Chick : ala..jangan gini la

translation : ala..don't like that la

Boy : Yang..i nak picet tetek siket..blei laa

translation : darling..may i press your bossoms..pleaseeeee

Chick : ala..jangan laa...malu la i..kk...siket aje eh

translation : ala..dont eh..shy laa..kk..touch abit only eh

i couldn't help it but just burst into laughter

hahahahahahahaa

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kk

chows

ps : pout that lips for me, please

=]

Things that you might not know

Things that you might not know

1) What does the candy cane really symbolises ?



The letter J : Jesus Christ who came to save man from their sins

The Wide Red Stripes : Blood that Jesus shed on man's behalf as He died for man sins

The White Stripes : Jesus' virgin birth and His pure sinless life

The Narrow Red Stripes : His scars when He got arrested

The Peppermint Flavor : Similar to hyssop used in the old times for purication

So, do you really know what you're eating ?

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2) Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity (composure) opinions which differ from the prejudices of their social environment.

Most people are even incapable of forming such opinions.

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3) My life is a mess

but Shalawat keeps me sane




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i seriously can't wait for chinese new year eve dinner

hahaha

i just cant wait to toss the yusheng PROSPEROUSLY

sadly, there's no food fight

hais

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my mama told me

love is not meant to be found or forced

love is achieved just by the thought of Allah

cease the people that will only bring you sins

forgive them with the purest of sincerity

learn the ways of the Prophets S.A.W

May They be your angels of guidance

dont seek revenge or search for love

let Allah search you and seek justice for you

as He is the unconditional love and protection that you can ever attain

Final day

Today

was a volcanic mixture of feelings for me

but i had them suppressed.

Indeed,

heart wrecking

at the same,

a huge relief.

who would have thought

Hidayat would complete his diploma in one piece.

So now,

i do not have to refer to lecture notes or lab manuals for the time being.

I can just concentrate on my part-time job and do my time before

green resort summons me.

Definitely,

there are people that will be dearly missed

with the likes of polymer lecturers,

ryza, syam, zad, fazli

classmates from year 1 to year 3,

dewi (happy belated birthday, kawan !!)

and the sp silat team.

Not forgetting,

the four chinese chicks from food tech *wagbrow* (cuci mata katekan)

This bunch had made my poly journey a memorable one

and i couldn't thank you guys enough.

o0oman..i'm so emo right now

haha

before i end this entry

let us walk into the memory lane

as we..more of I..remininsce the fond memories

DCP 1A/01 (best times)

Captain's Ball Team Polymer
(i was the key player, ok)

Sp Silat

Budak-budak terencat siket

The final day of 'Final Year Project'

Chemical and Life Sciences Annual Dinner and Dance
(and i thought i could get "lucky" that night..haha)

=]

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how i love cartoon network

this is the reason why

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starting my tees' line soon

"Cheesecake Factory"