silat.bio.maths.friends turn lovers ?

silat camp (day 1) : they said supposedly to be a fun camp..but its so bloody "fun" till i got my thighs so bloody strained and a few cuts on both of my arms. but i guess it was all worth it. iwas kinda proud of myself.to be exact, i did like 540 push ups, 50 sit ups and 5 clicks of jogging,200 squartings throughout the whole day.talking bout silat, i had a test at round 7 pm yesterday. so, it was based on power, speed, tecnique and lastly, sparring.as usual, my technique would pull me down.i scored bloody low for my kicking.hais.i taught they wanted tonjang cause thats the only kick im good at.but crap.they only test on sabet.bad choice.hais.but i kinda like the sparring test.kinda confidence booster for me after been mentally and physically tortured during last wk's training. ah.i manage to banteng my opponent whose apparently slightly smaller size than me but with loads of experience.i also managed to counter his banteng for 5 times.phhhewww.trust me, in silat, never ever assume people with frail body structure and with nerdy appearance are the weakest link.you simply don't know what they are capable of.

my dad always told me.practically almost every good pesilat would have gone through a very very bad patch in the early stage.its matter of you're willing to swollow the deflated ego(humilation) and "purge" it out like a man by taking a slice of humble pie. a good pesilat will never let his emotions and ego overshadow his rational thinking.my mum will keep on reminding me bout this saying," dalam dunia ini tiade sesiapa lebei berkuasa daripada Allah s.w.t dan kamu tidak harus tak berasa takot menghadapi manusia lain kerana mereka juga ciptaan-nya"

silat camp (day 2) : which is today.but i intended to attend to training.but considering the fact that i have micro bio that need to be completed by tonight and maths tests coming up this coming tues, so might as well, i just skipped my training.sorry ah ryza.

so i was reading amir's blog.very well written by amir and haseena.kudos to them.really.their command of english were simply flawless.kk.what amir wrote is kinda true.good friends do fall for each other.yups.sometimes, people just don't wish to tell because its either they are never up to their friend's expectations or its just that they're too afraid to lose that friend.o0o well,ape nak buat.cobaan.

hmm.ks.gtg.need to finish up my bio report and practise but ass kicking maths.i'll see u guys when the time comes.insyaAllah.

[ to tell or not to tell. it's just a matter of time ]